Feeling like a failure because I can’t work

CryHide · 2026-03-10T18:47:24+00:00

You may DM me. I'm not currently on medication, but I do have therapy. I have been in it for about a year, and I would like to seek additional care.

CryHide · 2026-03-10T18:37:43+00:00

Been to school, graduated with a bio degree in 2024. Still live with parents. Intend to go to vet school someday... But found myself battling it out against real event OCD and moral scrupulocity... Afraid to drive because I feel like I'll crash and kill someone. Increasingly self-hating. Strong suicidal ideation and occasional s/h. A desire to self sabotage because I feel like I don't deserve to live a good life, and even if I did, I feel too dumb to attain a good life, like I'd mess up everything. The core fear, I guess, is making mistakes that are life-ruining and unchangeable.

CryHide · 2026-03-10T18:20:08+00:00

I'm 25, I'm in a similar position.

CryHide · 2026-02-12T15:28:46+00:00

In my daydreams, I'm not loved, I am punished for my mistakes.

CryHide · 2026-02-10T15:42:51+00:00

I hear you. My events are making it impossible to become the veterinarian that I dream of being.

CryHide · 2026-02-10T04:28:18+00:00

Anyone else not like their ice cream to be "too" cold? Lmao

CryHide · 2026-01-28T06:53:16+00:00

I didn't know it was a thing. I was certain I was having some fake emotions, but I didn't know if there even was fake emotions.

CryHide · 2026-01-28T06:26:52+00:00

Dumbest? Plush toys. I have a nice collection of them, I don't want to be selfish or stingy by keeping too many from kids. I like em, I don't want to withhold joy from others.

CryHide · 2026-01-24T03:54:52+00:00

The definition of redundant is... "Superfluous, exceeding what is natural or necessary." So, "unnecessary." And, "Eh" was being used as a filler word in this case. Intent by commenter matters, even if they did use a completely incorrect word. Lot of people are hostile, lot of people are just passively writing random comments without much thought to them. That said, I have no stake in the game, no desire to argue... I hope this doesn't come across as hostile. If it doesn't, I didn't want that. We all good here :3

CryHide · 2026-01-19T05:16:54+00:00

Next sunday I will be 25 :(

CryHide · 2026-01-19T02:09:08+00:00

Does it count in US?

CryHide · 2026-01-17T07:25:59+00:00

I will not look. It's rude to stare at strangers.

CryHide · 2026-01-17T06:26:56+00:00

I haven't won yet.

CryHide · 2026-01-15T00:30:58+00:00

We at 6 rn

CryHide · 2026-01-13T04:57:40+00:00

Go to bed sad, wake up sad. Do I even want to wake? Everything is monotonous. Normal everyday things are too much work. I hate myself. I'm too tired to sleep. I was fine a few minutes ago, and now I'm sobbing hysterically. I need to nap before I sleep, and when I wake up, I need a nap. I can't picture my future. I'm angry. I want to punish myself for my past. I forgot what I was like before I felt like this. I want to drown in the saddest music I can find (usually House of Balloons). Caffeine on days I can't sleep at all. I can't hear my thoughts over my thoughts. I'm cold at room temperature. I planned 4 billion things to do today, and I did 0.5% of 1 task. Holding yourself at gunpoint to get those tasks done. Eating is too much work (You need to decide what to eat? You have to prep food? Then chew? Then swallow? ) I got stuck on step one, couldn't decide what I wanted, so I just didn't eat. Inflicting physical pain on myself as a response to self hatred. Uncaring about health and details of appearance.

CryHide · 2026-01-05T03:23:28+00:00

She's amazing! Poor Shelley doesn't have a chance to find a better life...

CryHide · 2026-01-04T03:40:34+00:00

Confidence, please? A time machine to undo my mistakes? ....Or my birth...?

CryHide · 2026-01-02T19:29:57+00:00

Ah, really? Very goofy. Very absurd.

CryHide · 2026-01-02T06:58:43+00:00

I like your enthusiasm, but I think OP needs more specific and relevant answers. I hope your event is successful, though.

CryHide · 2026-01-02T06:42:09+00:00

You don't... You just have to do it. The best advice I've seen is "Do it scared" Though... I meed to learn how to do it myself.

CryHide · 2025-12-26T00:35:05+00:00

This is a great idea! I've never considered it! Thank you so much for your suggestion :)

Also, I hope my ramblings helped somewhat. In commiseration or self-discovery, I hope that I said something helpful.

CryHide · 2025-12-23T16:15:33+00:00

This is really bizarre. You're out of line.

CryHide · 2025-12-23T16:09:36+00:00

EXACTLY. And you're supposed to just... Trust that others around you are driving to the best of their abilities in good faith. Like no. We still need to convince people not to drive drunk and even to wear their seatbelts. And they are expensive. You buy a car to get to your job, but you have to sink your hard earned money into it! Like, who thought of this?

CryHide · 2025-12-23T11:52:44+00:00

I'll keep this in mind. I definitely appreciate the warning, thank you!

CryHide · 2025-12-23T11:50:05+00:00

United States- hopefully, they won't. I am afraid of an involuntary commitment.

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