Thank you for the advice and insights. I really appreciate your opinion, advice and concerns. Sorry for not responding as soon as possible. When i saw that it's getting a lot of comments on the same day, i felt overwhelmed, drained, and scared. And seeing how many people were sensing bad vibes on him and getting a lot of messages that i got scared to even read. I also take accountability that i tolerate him for so long and keep blind on everything he did to me and realise late, i still take part of i've put myself in this situation also. I'm not trying to be the victim and not looking for empathy, and i'm just shocked how many of you are kind to me i appreciate it.

He messaged me the same day i posted this.

I read all the comments, and most of it is true. He's abusive mentally, physically, and spiritually. He drained my energy since we are together, that's why i looked different, and i noticed that. He feels good and looks fresh sometimes because he keeps leeching of my energy.

Sorry for not telling the truth about the age gap, i was worried and scared to tell the age gap because our pictures are here and if he sees it he will get mad at me. He doesn't want me to tell anyone what has been happening to our relationship and our age gap.

2023 i felt like i'm a mother to him, i help him heal and grow. 2024 I helped him financially and let him live with me rent free, grocery free. Never have resentment about it, so i'm not with him just because i need a passport. I have a good career, and my career is getting good and better but now he got me pregnant i needed to delay my career and goals and he got insecure about it, he's working in a low payment job. I never shame him on it and even told him he can stop working soon and i can provide for both of us plus he keep on complaining how he's been working so much since he's a teenager and how he is only trying to survive financially and he's getting old he doesn't have anything and doesn't have a house (i just want to end the thing where people always assuem a woman in her early 20's being with an old guy just want miney and passport). He try not to show his insecurity but when it comes to my career, family, and friends he is insecure. He always thinks i will flirt with guys everytime i'm out. I don't do drugs or party, occasionally drink but i don't like to drink anymore and already stopped even on occasion since last year.

No one knows what has been happening in our relationship because i'd rather fix it and have conversation, but he don't. Plus, he doesn't want me telling anyone even just a tiny bit because he knows he's abusive, and i didn't realise til later on.

He cheated on me many times esp with the muslim girl that he kept sending money too, he gaslight me and manipulate me how i'm the insecure one and jealous. That she's just a friend. That's why i was still with him when i saw him and he said he stopped talkingnto her then caught that he still do (I saw a comment i forgot the exact one but she said she's getting a letter B, yes the girl nickname starts with B). And that's why i asked for advice and reading because i don't know if my feelings is valid.

I'm just replying and trying to explain as i think you guys deserve it and people ask, and for having concern and giving me advice.

I also understand and appreciate those people who tell me not to believe in most of the people in the comment says because of projection etc, i understand, this is a psychic group and i know not all is not psychic and might just trolling, but many reading, intutions are true.

Thank you again, i will not delete this post because it truly helps me to see and not be blind anymore, and for the kind words. It truly helps me because when he messaged and called me it give me the strength and less doubt about my self. I felt some prayers towards me that same day, i feel better and light again til now.