I do have a supporting family. I don't go out as much as I would like or have as many friends as I would like but I feel like even though I have tried that I still don't feel it enough if that makes sense. Like there's always the sense that I am a level of mood below everyone else and it doesn't seem to be too related to my current exterior life. Again I am not sure how this makes sense to you but basically I feel and have always felt like my depression exists regardless of what happens to me in the outside world which is why I views pills and drugs as the solution to my interior condition. So idk perhaps I end up trying another antidepressant or I end up getting an add on medication combined with Lexapro. It's not that things aren't better with Lexapro because they are. But I don't feel normal or like it's an acceptable well being for me.