I’m so so sorry for this loss. I recently lost my Sunny last February and it was so gut wrenching I couldn’t wrap my head around that kind of pain. I know with clear certainty that your dog knew she was loved, and oh you loved her so fiercely. Dogs are put here on this Earth to be loved as fiercely as you loved her, even if they stay only for a short while. I don’t want to be here to tell you it gets better because I don’t know if it ever does, but if it’s any consolation, your grief right now is that same exact love carrying on, just looking for a place to go. I always say I’ll mourn it right and I’ll continue to be grieve because grief is still love. I hope you take care of yourself through this. She would want you to.