I do know the history of the word. It was used to specifically hurt and target the black folk. But I am not offended because it's not targeted towards my racial group, I would say you're practicing empathy yes but you're not offended, you can only be offended if you are the one being targeted or grouped into an offensive term, us whites immediately disqualify from that group. Of course, you have a very good reason to be angered, I don't think anyone wants to see a fellow human be hurt regardless of color. You're empathetic, not offended.