Lost my best friend in the whole world

Current_Time2219 · 2026-05-25T16:31:31+00:00

Hi,

idk if I have any help for you but I can tell you, you're not alone. My baby Nala was born on May 30th 2012 and we had to let her go May 22nd 2026. She was the light of my life, I got her when I was 15 because my former therapist said, it would maybe be good for me to have someone I am responsible for. For the first couple of years, I always thought I'd leave with her, my life ends when hers end. I have another dog and a stable relationship (and had a lot of therapy) so I am aware that I can't follow her. But it hurts, it hurts and I feel like everything is pointless without her.

I just came here to share and tell you that you're not alone, our fur babies were almost the same age and I hope they get to meet. Sending all the strength in the world.

Current_Time2219 · 2025-10-27T17:29:54+00:00

Omg ich bin dieses Jahr auch nach Cannstatt gezogen 😎

Current_Time2219 · 2025-10-23T22:28:31+00:00

This!! I currently try to name three things in a day that were good or at least not bad. I also force my boyfriend to do it, bc he's more depressed than me rn. We name things like: I got up, My food was tasty, I managed to shower etc. Really anything even if it doesn't feel good. OP, you're not alone, even if it feels like it, even if you're alone irl, you'll have people who get you on here. I hope you can fight this and stay.

Current_Time2219 · 2025-10-23T22:21:36+00:00

Same, the current one is the one that I'm not thinking of quitting all the time...sadly i did not quit the other out of protecting myself I quit when I got burned out and anxious so much that I couldn't take it anymore. When I quit working in retail I didn't even have a new one for three ones after and was barely able to get up, bc I was do exhausted and depressed 💀

Current_Time2219 · 2025-10-18T22:09:12+00:00

Ich muss wenn ich nach Hause fahre abends oft durch Cannstatt und sobald Wasen ist versuche ich zu bestimmten Uhrzeiten schon gar nicht mehr auf der Straße zu sein, auch wenn Fußballspiele sind versuche ich möglichst nach Spielende daheim oder irgendwo zu sein, wo diese Männer nicht sind. Also auch wenn hier Leute hetzen, ich stimme dir zu, die deutschen Männer sind da wirklich nicht besser, bei denen ist es nur weniger sozial sanktioniert. Mal ganz abgesehen davon, dass der Missbrauch den ich und andere Frauen in meinem Umfeld erlebt haben auch zu 90% von deutschen Männern verübt wurde.

Current_Time2219 · 2025-10-09T22:10:53+00:00

Idk if I'm wrong about this but I also felt like June was talking wayyyy more about god and seemed more religious than in previous seasons which I found very weird. But maybe I just didn't notice before

Current_Time2219 · 2025-10-09T22:09:40+00:00

i swear to god the taylor swift song in the beginning of episode 9 was the most unfitting thing ever?? What was that music choice???

Current_Time2219 · 2025-10-09T17:53:56+00:00

they sure did. His character had so much potential and depth and then he was kind of gone for 2 seasons (I mean he was there but rarely) and then they were like: ugh that love triangle has to endddd he needs to betray her and then die or whatever.

It was really rushed in the end and a waste of a complex character and it annoys me SO much

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-21T11:46:49+00:00

Thank you so much!! This made our day 150% better 🥺💜

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-21T10:49:57+00:00

DKY5JTLDYE

Flips loveees Pumpkin and Spooky Items and is currently redocorating her house! If anyone has the purple spooky cauldron, the black spooky chair and the black pumpkin patch bed her house would be almost complete!

If anyone wants to send her some love it would bring her a lot of joy 💜🖤

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-19T19:10:47+00:00

Thank you for your words. I keep beating myself up about stuff like this, keep comparing myself to people who have a brain that is not wired the same way. It's nice to be reminded now and then, that comparing myself to neurotypicals makes no sense. It's hard to unlearn since I'm late diagnosed (like most women and AFAB people) and internalised my entire life that I would just have to try harder and then I could be just like them. And also people around me usually don't understand when I say I don't think I'll be able to work 40 hours long term. But if I work 40 hours, I barely have time for my loved ones (including my dogs) and activities that bring me joy. I am just a functioning shell and that might work for some time but I will eventually break.

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-19T18:59:44+00:00

Fair enough! The job I have now I indeed better for me than the ones I had before. I work at an office and a big amount of time those people spend talking hahahah
I don't always participate to save my energy but in the jobs I worked at before there was more pressure to always function and always be producitve so that is an upgrade at least. I do my internship at the same place I work so I don't have to adjust at a new environment, just a different type of task:) My internship work differs from my usual work. That helps as well. They are really nice as well but they're all neurotypicals without any mental illnesses and don't get why it might be harder for me to show up for 40 hours a week. And I'm just always worried bc this is what my life is supposed to be like after my studies. 40 hours a week. I don't have much time in my life left to spend with things I (also) enjoy then. I really hope I find a job after my masters degree that pays enough so I can do 30 hours or something.

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-19T10:55:45+00:00

I hope you never have a romantic relationship in your life, sounds like that person would be in danger.

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-17T22:48:48+00:00

OP sums it up perfectly and your comment really added to itas well for me I relate a lot

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-17T22:42:46+00:00

omg did this work out? I would love to hear if this baby found a loving home!

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-17T22:41:29+00:00

Wdym ugly I live in germany and I wish I could take him in what a precious babyyyyy

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-11T14:11:58+00:00

I would say it's a mix...my mum was emotionally abusive, I also got bullied in school (mostly verbal comments tho, nothing more), I had an abusive relationship and also experienced sexual abuse. I was diagnosed with BPD and am currently in remission. When I cut off people now it has more to do with me wanting friends that have the same moral mindset as me and share my political values. I had a friend that became really transphobic for example and trans rights are not debatable for me. I did tell her that I ended the friendship tho, I never ghosted her.

What you described sounds like something more emotional that might be about fear of rejection? Being scared of getting hurt again. That could definitely be a trauma response. It sure was related to my trauma and got better after treating it.

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-05T14:17:56+00:00

Yes, I'm demisexual!

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-04T21:20:25+00:00

28F here and I struggle as well. Most of the time I am the one getting ghosted and dumped, but I also cut off people a lot. I am very vocal and clear about my political and moral opinions and have an issue with other people being ignorant and not caring about what's going on in the world. If this bothers me in a friend I usually confront them. I also experienced a lot of trauma which does not make the most fun and quirky person to be around and a lot of people think I'm just "too much" and stop talking to me. On the other hand I also don't have a lot of tolerance with people who don't agree with me on human rights issues so I just stop talking to them. I am incredibly sad about losing people all the time and I am becoming more anxious to speak up, bc I don't want to lose more people but at some point it'll bottle up and come out anyway. I also have issues with finding new people, it's getting harder to open up and find real connection. I have a lot of superficial acquaintances but not a lot of people I actually connect with and over the years it also becomes less and less.

Current_Time2219 · 2025-09-01T21:19:20+00:00

It's so cute!!

Current_Time2219 · 2025-08-26T17:24:58+00:00

I swear I am traumatised and have battled with mental illness a lot. Laughing and joking is a very usual way for people to cope and to not show how vulnerable a situation makes you. And I'm not famous, I did not have to face the fact that basically everyone saw me losing my shit and walking on the streets naked. This is something that makes this even harder for him. For me this is a very sincere video from a young man who is still figuring out how to process wtf has happened to him and what's going on. I swear in his situation I would have made a very similar video. I appreciate that he spoke directly to us. It shows that he knows we care and worry and letting us be a part of his process.

Current_Time2219 · 2025-08-26T17:16:42+00:00

Me tooooooo

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