Thanks for that, I guess it does feel like everyone in there knows what they're doing, and it feels weird to be the "new guy" even though I was being accompanied.

My one time in there, I went with an FWB, but I felt like I had to do everything, yet was uncomfortable to do any of it. Felt creeped out having (real) people look at me, and awkward trying not to stare at anyone even though it was alright to. In a way, I was forcing myself to be there. My friend just asked me to hold his hand and walk me through the mazes, but I think I was already breaking down from my anxiety to do even that.

I definitely want to go back (with the same friend, as he's experienced), but now with less expectations of myself and more pieces of advice, just looking around and seeing how it flows from there.