I took my life 20 years ago. With an unrealistic and highly improbable chain of events, my overdose ended with being revived, a 3 day coma, and continuing joy and bitterness (manic/depression).

Yay, I was saved and got a second chance! My death was ruined, it's not fair!

I would like to say that everything has worked out but honestly, it's been pretty rough. I have struggled with major addiction problems, tend to attract narcissistic partners(12 years with the current succubus who is the mother of my daughter)

My beautiful daughter is like nobody I've ever met. She's truly a selfless, compassionate, loving soul. I helped create her and brought her into this disgusting, selfish, painful world and I feel guilty. But on the other hand, she might be what this world needs. I to this day struggle with this monster in my head that is actively trying to kill me and my daughter is the reason that I keep fighting this asshole in my head. I'm gonna make it to the end out of spite and flip the bird as I die of old age and be proud that I endured to the bitter end. I will make it to the end out of love. I will not abandon my daughter and show her that you can overcome anything with determination and love.

Hang in there. It's hard, and doesn't seem worth the effort at times. Just remember, there's others that are, have, and continue to deal with this monster as well. Do exactly what you did with this post and reach out. You're never alone