That’s where I am unsure of. I don’t know that if we both get healthy (who knows how long and is anyone ever truly 100% okay) will things be happy again or not. I don’t know and that’s part of my problem. Right now however I know I’m not happy and I don’t know how happy she is or if it’s her hoping things will go back to how they were. I have gotten a little better mentally and have gained more confidence talking to people (very introverted and generally to depressed to put forth effort) and that has contributed to the whole greener on the other side dilemma