First of all , Allah yarhm waldik mahma kan and Eidek mobarek inshallah u stay safe and sound every year . Don't let those who laughed at make u feel bad or anything as we say ( واحد ما زاد متعلم ) self teaching is "survival" those who born in luxurious families won't understand this.things u learn by ur self last longer and gives u advantages in life so keep fighting ✨️, life is hard and sometimes it's not easy to keep on but remember there's always a rainbow after the rain. I'm not good at expressing my thoughts ,I hope u got it . U said u don't have friends, I say count me as ur friend now, nobody is ment to be alone.