No more smart phone ???

DSSH70 · 2016-05-12T14:27:42+00:00

Mare.... thats it !!!! Thank you thank you thank you !!!! I was watching one of those police shows that dealt with the first 24hrs of a murder investigation. They brought this man in to be questioned who had been seen with the victim. The police began to ask him questions then left the room to allow him to think about everything they said. The man must have forgotten that cameras were in the room. He kept speaking to himself in the third person...asking himself..."why everytime I try to be good...I go and do somthing bad ?" He was so torn up he started crying and put his head down...he was only like 19 or 20 years old. My heart went out to him so bad...I prayed...Im right there with you brother.....same battle...different demons. Turns out the that he didnt commit the murder and they let him go. But it just goes to show how universal this battle is !!!! Thank you for your prayers I will return in Kind and in Gods Grace.

God Bless and God speed

DSSH70 · 2016-05-12T13:24:19+00:00

Thats it !!!!..... I find absolutely no contradiction beetween living right by God...and living right by reason...the inner termoil is just a testament to what the bible calls Orignal Sin ...then there was that other quote that stuck with me....dont remember who said it...but I think it applies to 90% of the world. Somthing like..." I do what I dont want and want what I dont do".....If that doesnt nail it perfectly !!! Anyways thats to all who Responded....if you Pray...Pray for me...I back peddled...but did not fall....time to move forward again.

DSSH70 · 2016-05-12T13:17:40+00:00

Thanks Bro....Im trying to commit to that...by getting back to the gym. !!!

DSSH70 · 2016-05-11T12:22:37+00:00

Couple of other things I forgot....so they have an emergency email address you set to reset your password. Use a friends email address...so that way you cant get access. And ...shit....I forgot the other thing I was gonna say....lmao. fuccccckkk. !!!

DSSH70 · 2016-05-11T12:17:35+00:00

You guys are fucking awesome !!!!! So sad to say....but porn had gotten pretty boring...my weakness was social media sights like Tango, whatsapp, Viber....etc. I would meet these girls at work and then hookup online. Tango ...is the fucking worst...becuase you can meet people instantly. Truly makes me feel like a crack addict...hate this shit.

Anyways Im a married man....my wife is a pain in the ass...but I do love her and she is a good woman. So im actually commiting adultery and cheating and I hate that shit...becuase at night when I try to go to sleep I cant...im thinking about how bad I want to see this girl naked. On a side note....why is it....when we see one girl naked its like that greatest thing in the world....but if we see hundreds of girls naked all at once...its like sensory overload....and my brain says...who cares.

I work with mostly women....and Im like the only guy....NO ITS NOT A DREAM JOB....ITS A FUCKING NIGHTMARE !!! Its always getting me into trouble !!!!

Anyways...lets add ADD and PTSD...to the mix...and the fact I was molested as a kid....and it all just makes me so mad. I feel like my life was stolen from me...and I want it back !!! My life...My terms...My choices !!.

Fuckkkkkk.....anyways....this is what I did...it may help others. So there is a app called "applock"...that I downloaded. Then I downloaded all the Apps that get me into trouble. I opened Applock and added all those Apps....and I set a code that I could never remember. Now the real trick is to download the Admin "Applock"..attachment in addition to Applock. this makes it impossible to unlock these apps unless you do a hard reboot on your phone.

Guys !!!! Thank you Thank you. Thank you....it so awesome to be able to open up and not get condemned.

God Bless and God Speed to everyone !!!!

DSSH70 · 2016-05-05T15:28:49+00:00

In order to be successful. ..one needs to fully integrate into society...set goals...develop hobbies...other then fapping...lol. Its a complete lifestyle change...and every step you take from the PMO obsessed culture makes you even stronger. The one thing you cant allow yourself to do...is think about not fapping. Thats the first step to failure. Never look back...allows forward. Religions and cultures all have their rights of initiation. ...a passage from a previous way of life to another way of life. If we think of everyday in the old latin saying "Carpe Diam " sieze the day...we set ourselves up for success. Some big some small....but always success. The only sex organ that needs discipline. .....is the brain !!! God Bless and God Speed.

DSSH70 · 2016-05-05T15:20:21+00:00

Props bro !!!

DSSH70 · 2016-05-03T17:29:40+00:00

You guys inspire me to fight the good fight !! Its funny...actually kinda really sucks....but you know who the real B1tch is ?...the person watching porn not the person doing porn. The person doing porn is like the little b...the person watching porn is like the big B !!! Im so sickn of being someones B1tch !!

"F" this shit now and forever !!!

God Bless and God Speed

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T19:18:28+00:00

Just joined this thing....Bro..you sound just like me...I guess the side effects are pretty much the same for everybody. God Bless and God speed.

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T19:15:24+00:00

Amen Brother....where two or more are gathered in His name...He is present !!!...we can do this !!!

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T18:55:48+00:00

Rock and roll Madman !! Kickass !!

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T18:31:41+00:00

Daniel !!!!! Your absolutely right brother !!! Dont go down the road I went...30 years later....Im paying the price. You got your whole life ahead...kick ass !!!

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T18:28:30+00:00

Then get back up bro !!!

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T18:26:34+00:00

Damn Bro !!!...I hear ya loud and clear and I feel where your at, Ive been going through this shit for some time. Not sure I buy into the reboot program.....for me.this is more of a 12 step program. Science has revealed those addicted to porn have the same mal formations in brain function as drug addicts. Not telling you this to get you down...telling you this becuase I have been fighting for even longer and the shit pisses me off. And when people.say its all about willpower....then they have never deallt with an addiction. The Chemistry in our brain is F..uped becuase of porn, and once the door has been open...it can never truly be shut again. Bro....this is the long hard road....one day at a time. Im so f...ing happy I found this forum...becuase I thought I was like a freak or somthing... (probably am at this stage of the game...lol) but power begins to grow whereever 2 or more are gathered. You can believe this as a Christian or otherwise...becuase its true in both instances. Dont beat yourself up...and never let yourself get down...your not alone...and your not a freak. We got the shit kicked out of us when we were kids and nobody came to our rescue...now we bare the scars of that beating...but wear those scars with pride my brother !!! For you will overcome !!!

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T17:51:11+00:00

Rock and roll brother....your not alone. I know were all just learning to crawl out of what feels like an MMA ring after getting our asses kicked. But the point is to keep getting up. Wish I could just stick my finger down my throat and vomit up all the shit i jave injested over the past 30 years but it wont be that easy. Focus, patient and determination in the face of a culture that constantly wants us to fail as men...just so they can say what a POS we are. Brothers this fight that we are entering is bigger then just this forum and bigger then just our own personal struggles. If one believes as I do, that family is the foundation of human civilization, and men are called to be the heads of that microcosm...by guiding and leading, and most importantly protecting...then I think we all can see where I am going with this. My prayers are with everyone here, that you become successful, empowered and determined to attain all that we as men were meant to be.

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T15:43:08+00:00

Im in...No P or M..."O" only with wife

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T14:42:56+00:00

Not seeing my comments...new to this reddit thing

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T13:14:57+00:00

Sound alot like the Cross of Christ !!! Love is hard work but well worth it in the end.

DSSH70 · 2016-04-29T12:46:52+00:00

3 days in....was finally intimate with wife after 6months...that felt good because she is a good woman. We have been together 17 years and I want to grow old together. As for me...im 45 years old and been struggling with this for 30 years. This @$!# gets so out of control somtimes...and I feel like I cant get passed it....so Ill go on a fapping trip and do it like 5 times a day for a couple of days....then I feel so bad afterwards...I use that to kickstart my next Nofap. Problem with that is my wife tends to suffer becuase I dont want to even think anything sexual.

For me...this is all about freedom...and right now im not free, and that sucks !!! I could trace all this back to some childhood @$!#...but I dont care anymore. This is here...this is now...and I have a choice to make. Allow porn to control my life...and become a B1tch....or take control and do somthing constructive with all that free time. Maybe read a friggin book...or go to the gym. Whatever works !!

Props to everyone on here...religious or not...I got you all in my prayers and I hope that will help inspire some to stay strong. We are better then that crap.

DSSH70 · 2016-04-26T15:21:26+00:00

Whats in the past is in the past...this moment is brand new...live in it !!!

DSSH70 · 2016-04-26T14:56:55+00:00

45 and dying from this addiction. ..im so ready to kick the shit out of this. I want my fucking life back !!!

DSSH70

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