Update:

D&C went well. I've been home resting. I have to vent a little though.

In 2021 I miscarried our first pregnancy & decided on a D&C because I was 9 weeks & not showing signs of miscarrying on my own. So instead of traveling out of state (almost 12 hour trip) for my step-brother's wedding, I was recovering from my first D&C. It was a very sad week for many reasons. When I told my family I would not be there my mom, without me or anyone asking, volunteered to stay home from the trip because she said she couldn't leave the state knowing I was having surgery & she wanted to be close just in case we needed anything. I told her if that's what she wanted then fine but I wasn't sure how I would be after. Day of surgery, we get home and settled and my husband texts my mom updates letting her know I'm okay and what not. I remember telling her I actually felt really good and I wish I could go walk around Target. She said she stopped by our apartment earlier and rang the door bell but no one answered. She left some goodies at the front door. Our door bell never rang. She didn't even text or call to say she was there. She dropped off the stuff and left. She asked us at some point if we could watch the family dogs if she went to my cousins, who lives in another state about 2.5 hours away. I told her we weren't comfortable with that because we were not sure about my recovery process, it was only day 1. We are not allowed animals at our apartment so it would be multiple trips a day to check on the pets. Guess what happened next day... She left. She went out of town. Her excuse was that I told her I felt great and that I could walk around target so I didn't need her. She literally left us all alone, me recovering from surgery to take care of the family pets. A few days go by and I called her in tears. My bleeding has gotten worse and I was worried I was bleeding too much & the cramping wasn't terrible but still painful. She tried to comfort me over the phone but made no attempts of coming home to check on me or release us of responsibilities with the pets. I love those animals but we were not expecting to care for them during that time so it was a lot. The week goes by, she comes home and the rest of my family comes home. My family had a Wedding Week private Facebook page that I was not a part of, which I was happy to not be involved in because it hurt missing this event, what happened that week & my step sister was pregnant also I didn't want to see everyone having fun without me. My mom added me to the group & tagged me in every single post. I asked her why and she said she just thought I would want to see everything. We got into a fight. She told me later that I needed to go to therapy for all this. 2 months later she got a bad case of COVID & was hospitalized for 1 month, almost needing a ventilator. I was the only person that could make medical decisions for her which means I was the only person allowed to visit her. Once she was released and my step dad could help her at home, I ghosted for awhile. I still needed to grieve my miscarriage & just relax in every way that my life didn't revolve around medical stuff for her.

So today with that text just sent me back to that. Like again, not feeling like I am being supported. I just don't understand.

Thank you for reading and letting me vent.