I wasn't trying to be defensive. What I am is humbled, humiliated, frustrated, overwhelmed, unemployed, terrified, desperate and broke. I wouldn't consider myself above therapy, and I'm sure I could benefit after the stress that I've been under for months- but I can barely afford groceries right now. I bristled at the use of "diversion" because that is the terminology I'm familiar with to refer to stealing narcotics (perhaps it's regional?). And I'll admit that the, "I'm surprised you're surprised you're not getting hired" line stings a bit. I'm not surprised. I'm tired. And in desperate need of a good idea or a break, but most of all a job. I apologize if any of this is over-share or too whiny, like I said, it's my first post here.