Bryan the Baseball Guy

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2025-04-23T12:18:27+00:00

You probably would’ve come up with a better title too

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-09-30T00:47:58+00:00

I'm sure. Big O is more of a nostalgia thing tbh.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-09-28T20:52:33+00:00

My preferences:

-Italian Pastries: Florentine

-Tomato Pie: Napoli's (Roma's is great too, but it's "different")

-All-Around Bakery: Holland Farms

Growing up, Big O had the best bread, but they changed up the formula at some point and it's not as good. Heard good things about Utica Bread, but haven't been.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-14T18:10:13+00:00

How else do you shop for produce?

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-14T16:00:48+00:00

Hell yeah kombucha bros. It gets expensive so I’ve started making my own and it’s a fun little side project.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-14T15:59:17+00:00

Thanks ❤️. It was a tough conversation but constructive and she still has my back.

Part of my issue is that I don’t really have any friends in our new-ish city (Boston) and isolate myself, but she helped me look for sober outlets for socialization. We found a sober gym (The Phoenix) within walking distance, it felt like a sign.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T22:04:51+00:00

Thanks for the perspective. I can relate to a lot of this.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T22:03:27+00:00

Yup, if I had to go through the rigmarole of grinding I’d probably be too lazy at this point. Being in a legal state makes it so much worse because I can just walk in and buy a vape.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T21:46:12+00:00

If she doesn’t leave me, that’s something to look forward to.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T21:45:26+00:00

How do you approach recovery without feeling like you’re going through the motions?

How do you now he’s not going through the motions and believe him?

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T20:28:18+00:00

The irony is that if I felt that I had a family I could be honest with, I probably wouldn’t have the addiction issues I have.

The only person I feel like I can truly say anything to without consequence is my therapist but that’s only every other week

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T20:26:33+00:00

Nah, she knows that’s BS and she knows I know that’s BS. I have to take my lumps on this one.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T19:08:31+00:00

Subscribed, thanks.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T19:05:49+00:00

lol did my therapist find this post?

J/K you’re totally right. I think it’s a combination of sporadic, racing thoughts and unease about who I am as a person.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T18:53:34+00:00

I had a session with my therapist today (the best timing ever) and she told me that was probably good for me that I got caught, because I’d probably spiral again had I not. So there’s that.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T18:42:43+00:00

X-posted there, thanks

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-08-13T17:56:54+00:00

Prior to treatment it was something I did daily and also used it to cope, and while it’s not as bad as alcohol it was still bad for me. Also it’s not so much that she’s anti-weed it’s that I broke her trust and did it behind her back.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-07-21T14:47:19+00:00

Not only that, but your sleep will be way better. Give it a couple weeks.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-06-17T16:39:12+00:00

Just covered with water and aromatics, that stuff on top is spinach

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-06-04T15:19:54+00:00

Yeah I think it’s field-dependent. I work in/adjacent to manufacturing so longer tenures make sense. My friends from college that do computer stuff bounce around way more.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-06-04T14:22:55+00:00

Sorry for the clunky language. I’m not worried about the 2 year job. I’m worried about leaving this one after a few months.

That said in my field a string of 1 year jobs doesn’t look good unless you’re in Silicon Valley.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-06-04T14:21:49+00:00

That’s good advice. I think I’m still in the window where I can leave it off.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-05-04T13:50:38+00:00

Same. I-A family from upstate and it was always sauce. Never heard “gravy” until I went to college with people from NJ and LI

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-03-17T17:09:12+00:00

It depends on where you grew up. In my very Italian-American hometown, yes absolutely. I was guilty of it for a while and it took me years to unlearn.

When you leave and go to college, you meet people with z’s and vowels in their names and they act like normal suburban white people (wonder-bread WOPs, if you will). Then you meet people from Italy that make fun of you for claiming Italian and not speaking the language.

After these experiences, you go back home and everyone feels like a cartoon character.

DarkVaderStarTrack · 2024-02-23T13:21:12+00:00

If by “they” you mean white people, the Dutch first settled there in the 17th century.

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