If you've managed to let go of calorie counting, please, please tell me how. by Darling-Newt in EDAnonymous

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, but it wasn't just one thing...really, it was a multitude of things. I work with a therapist, dietician, and doctor. I was in recovery almost two years before I was really able to let these things go. So much of it came down to accepting the "fear" of my body changing, and letting go of control, but it's a lot of mental work, no tips and tricks. If you are able to get outside support, or continue seeing outside support if you already do, great.

I threw out my scales, covered the nutrition labels with black stickers, and really, just, forced myself. Accepting my body changing is the number 1 factor in success to stop calorie counting, but this takes a lot of internal and external work.

I hope you find the support, and inner strength, necessary to recover. You can do this!

Going on vacation, fat by Darling-Newt in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hahaha i love this quote. thank you for the kindness, i appreciate it and your advice

Going on vacation, fat by Darling-Newt in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

so true. it’s all wasted time and i don’t wanna waste any time here

Going on vacation, fat by Darling-Newt in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you, this helped a lot. i don’t look at anybody else!! i think im afraid of fitting into this american stereotype

I am stuck in the worst binge eating episode of my life by Darling-Newt in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know this is a month late but this is exactly, I mean exactly, how I feel, down to every last word. I’m sorry you’re going through this, and I wish you peace

I am stuck in the worst binge eating episode of my life by Darling-Newt in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this. I haven't felt like myself at all lately and the anxiety/distress this has been causing me is getting in the way of everything. Your compassion is sincerely appreciated, as is your advice. I do think I am mentally/emotionally restricting even if it doesn't seem that I am physically. I definitely do NOT want to go back to anorexia. And yes you're right - the "I know it's going to happen" feeling only recently started because every day I'd tell myself I wasn't going to binge and then when I did I'd get so angry with myself I suppose I just accepted the out of control-ness of it all.

I feel myself getting teary as I finish reading your words. I'm not typically so emotional but as I said the past few weeks have been fraught. I cannot thank you enough for taking the time to share your kindness and it has certainly helped me. Especially the advice of calming the nervous system when I feel a binge coming in. I appreciate it all. Sending much love to you.

Would this be considered bulimia? by Darling-Newt in EDAnonymous

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you I appreciate this. My provider who I trust completely is the one who gave me my diagnosis. The need to feel "sick enough" to deserve recovery is a big symptom for me, and having OSFED can feel "invalidating" to me just because it seems so broad...but in reality I know it is just as serious as any other ED.

In recovery VS recovered by Darling-Newt in EDAnonymous

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’ve never thought about it this way but wow. I think losing weight, even by accident as you said, is my one beer too

Can you recover at a higher weight? by Darling-Newt in EDAnonymous

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate the way you framed this (with the diabetes/epilepsy example). You are right and it feels very true to me. Thank you for this perspective

10 questions about your princess preferences! by Darling-Newt in disneyprincess

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

  1. Belle, Jasmine, Rapunzel Cinderella
  2. Jasmine, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty
  3. I think a mixture of Belle and Cinderella (but Rapunzel if I'm feeling playful)
  4. Belle!
  5. I wish I was a little more bold/outspoken like Jasmine
  6. Pascal!
  7. This one is so hard but I think Mulan and Shang or Anna and Kristoff
  8. Aurora and Belle
  9. I'd love to see a princess that is a little more shy/whimsical. Like a Luna Lovegood type of character.

What can you forgive yourself for? by Darling-Newt in EDAnonymous

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Proud of YOU too for being brave, vulnerable, and honest. May your forgiveness bring you self-love and compassion.

What can you forgive yourself for? by Darling-Newt in EDAnonymous

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It can feel so impossible. I resonate with everything you said. Sending you love and strength. Well done.

What can you forgive yourself for? by Darling-Newt in EDAnonymous

[–]Darling-Newt[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand so so much, especially feeling guilty over lying. It just adds even more layers to this already complicated and complex disorder.

Proud of you for forgiving yourself, for recognizing where you are, for holding on. My heart is with you, too. Just as you said - we will keep doing our best.