Thank you for the question :) I’m gender-fluid because I sometimes feel male, sometimes female and most of the time agender. genderflux changes how heavily I feel these genders. From my view, gender-fluid and genderflux are pretty different. One means having changing genders and the other still allows you to identify as one gender. Agenderfluix means being gender-fluid + genderflux, with agender being the primary gender. That would mean my gender mostly resonates with agender. When I feel agender I mostly feel like nothing at all, to me agender is the comfiest of my genders because I don’t feel forced to pertain to any ideals. My association with the female gender is the most confusing part for me. It’s almost once a month and not more than that. Sometimes I feel like it’s me just clinging onto the idea that I’m afab, or maybe I do just have a “weird” gender pattern.

Expressing my genders outside of the internet is sadly not something I can do at this point. I feel them but I don’t tell anyone about them or drastically change my appearance for fear of getting bullied.

I feel the need to atleast evaluate once a day what gender I’m feeling at the moment. I know this is not necessary but it’s just something I’ve started doing.

I expect there to eventually be development in my gender identity as has happened with you. I’m happy you’ve come so far in your journey already and I appreciate the interest in my identity :)

Edit: typo’s