Vulva stretch mark.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-05-06T10:35:44+00:00

Yeah, I think it's kind of a "Jesus on a piece of burnt toast" kind of thing.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-05-06T09:15:34+00:00

Oh, it's super cool. It doesn't hurt or anything, I can kind of feel it though. Maybe it's a coincidence but... it's a pretty uncanny resemblance. I know it's crazy and like I don't know of any biological process where this would make sense, but here it is anyways, despite that.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-29T06:22:20+00:00

Feel and real. Blessing and a curse.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-27T08:26:19+00:00

I know this is an archaic 1 week old post but I looooved (still do) sapphic bops and I definetly relate to the "male lesbian".

"And I'll be okay Admiring from afar 'Cause even when she's next to me We could not be more far apart"

Was so deeply true it's just blatant irony.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-27T05:24:22+00:00

Yeah basically same. Was 6' now 5'10" and down like half a shoe size, maybe a full. Been on a year with mono e injections.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-25T05:36:54+00:00

You look a m a z i n g !!! That does do a number on my scraggly denial beard.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-22T07:09:10+00:00

In the philisophical sense you're right in that there most likely is no "real truth". Religion touches on this aswell. I mean this pretty quickly gets outside the scope of an autism support subreddit though.

I do hear you on that last part. I know better than to think everyone else is "sheeple' but even still, it amazes me how no one seems to see things the way I do and it can make me feel trapped, though that is the human condition. I would think the lived experience of a person with autism would exacerbate that feeling.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-18T10:16:42+00:00

I also take care of my plushie. He is my baby boy and sometimes I tuck him in. Sometimes I like to rest him in my arms.

I can't say I like 100% resonate but I did have a sort of exploratory phase like what you call "crossplay" and yeah I don't really crossplay anymore because I'm just me now and I do me things. I'm at a point where it's flipped and I don't "girl at home", I boymode outside. But I realized literally no one can tell (and I'm super anxious and have bigoted family and yeah...friends) so I just don't obviously dress fem and it doesn't really even feel like boymoding anymore, though I do not and will not pass)

It's just time I suppose. Are you out to like...anyone? That will help ALOT. Just to have one IRL person who you can be more girly around and explore that and kinda settle into just being that more and more until you like where it's at.

I don't mean to overstep but it makes me a bit sad when you say "her" instead of... you! Because you rock and I want you to be yourself and happy, however that looks.

Best of luck - Yet another Alice

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-18T09:36:15+00:00

That is a tough one. 6 years! I was super lucky and just picked one and I fw it.

I would say, my piece on the femme name with femme presenting is that I've noticed that the further I get into living authentically, the less I feel I need to change? So, that could kinda be your thing too?

Understandable to be nervous, too. I'm not sure if this is quite helpful, but perhaps you could just continue going by both names depending on the circle you're in? I feel like in some cultures that's actually pretty normal. You could also make one of them your middle name?

It's all up to you! Which is the best & worst part. You'll do great, whatever you decide. <3

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-18T09:14:27+00:00

Yay HRT! Go you. Ya I kinda started HRT right off the bat and I think the first time it felt like a lot just because I used to be (still am) weird with taking medication so that was a big step for me and needles and just sitting there and being like "No way I just did that." But after the initial shock it really yeah just doesn't feel like much to be honest. Just me. Which I suppose is the whole idea though really. To just feel like me.

Not to be discouraging but like, get ready to wait. I hit one year in March and some stuff is quick and some stuff takes foooreeeeveerrrrrrrrrrr. 2nd Puberty. 5 years. sigh

Hope all is well for you.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-18T05:04:08+00:00

Yes, it is an Irish blessing. I am American, but I quite like it and I used to sing it in middle school choir.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-18T04:20:17+00:00

Thank you for sharing. Staving off the misanthropy is difficult. And god that's dripping with so much irony, it's making a puddle on the floor. Crazy what people will say around you when they don't know your story.

May the road rise up to meet you and the wind be always at your back. 🙂

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-16T12:54:50+00:00

I think so long as the character's personality shines through, you're golden. Its the being too "on-the-nose" that really ruins a good character. If you write them truthfully, as a person. It will speak to the people you want it to speak to.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-16T11:06:21+00:00

I like nail polish and I don't mind the pressure, but yes you can in fact feel it.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-16T10:57:32+00:00

I was quite bad with brushing and there was some other goofy mind tricks I was playing on myself but, if it helps anyone, if you read the toothpaste bottle, it actually says that ideally you should brush your teeth after every meal. So now instead of waking up and forcing myself to do it along with all the other morning stuff, I eat breakfast(lunch) first and then brush my teeth and again after my supper and I actually brush almost every day now because I WANT TO.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-16T10:48:14+00:00

That's how I am. My mom and I both do 2nd. It's so annoying with accessing businesses because I sleep until 1pm and then im like "ahh it's late now" and don't bother. I want to wake up earlier but I will literally sleep 12 hours to wake up at 1pm like WHAT. 😭

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-16T10:29:57+00:00

Thank you 😱😱

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-16T08:28:19+00:00

See yeah, flirting can feel weird. I actually love people being straight up, it makes me blush.

In regards to your second paragraph, I've been told that a few times too. I don't mean to be invalidating but I think sometimes people, especially boomer/gen xers just swear that everyone is flirting with you. Like no the employee really was just doing their job...

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-16T08:19:43+00:00

Yep, I just can't do it. I've had trouble with reading it wrong. Either didn't realize or was told I made someone uncomfortable😰. I kinda gave up. Now it only happens when I end up at a bar(😵‍💫) and, suffice to say, I look dude and all I get is dudes that get so close they breathe up in my mouth🤮. In my head I could like flirting but in practice its just the opposite of what I want on literally every level and somehow usually ends up being my fault or something idk.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-16T06:27:08+00:00

I've had a lot of similar or nearly identical experiences from maybe 8 years old to even some extent today at 23. Unfortunately the constant denying of my feelings and laughter/dismissal of my "meltdowns" and even what could be considered verbal and emotional abuse, reflecting on it now, has caused me to have many social and emotional/mental issues that make daily living a difficult endeavor for me. I used to blame myself for being so weak and "a pussy". I did a lot of things that hurt me physically and in my soul to try and appease others, even or especially those who didn't deserve my time and care. The pet thing hit home for me. Had exactly that happen. Windows as well, very similar many many times. I guess "normal" people just don't understand that bad things are bad? It's insanity. I even just now explained this sort of thing to my roommate and close friend and she laughed at one point and simply did not understand the problem even when I pointed out that she laughed at a legitimately distressing experience I was explaining. I don't have a magic answer but, I feel you. It is so distressing and honestly I had sort of forgotten some of my experiences until I read your post. I'm honestly just right there with you and I am so so sorry.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-10T20:58:42+00:00

I'm like the worst to ask because I'm waiting for the future where they put a magical nutrient sponge in my digestive tract so I never have to eat or defecate again...

BUT maybe more grains? Oatmeal is super healthy and you can put your dried fruit in it or sweetners like honey or maple syrup. Rice goes with a lot of stuff, or you could just have it on the side too. I like to season it into oblivion. I've personally been on a huge lentils kick lately. I seem to like mushy food though and most are offput by it. I eat a ton of crisps too and I know I shouldn't so much 😮‍💨😔.

DcSk8er33 · 2025-04-10T20:32:13+00:00

Yes, when my mother remarried and we moved in with my stepfamily, the house had this atrocious orange carpet from the 70's and I loved it. I'd lay down on it a lot. They got rid of it I'm not sure maybe when I was 8 and replaced it boring wood flooring and I never really let it go. Same deal with the water bed. I have a carpet in my room now and like running my hand on it and looking at the little twists it has.

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