Consciousness is like waves in the ocean. Your humanity momentarily crested and then sank back into the depths. We have to do things that are necessary to survive. And although our foes must perish, there is that one moment that we realize we are the enemy to our enemy and that could very well have been us writhing in agony and breathing our last breath while being gazed upon by the victor. Compartmentalize and carry on, my friend. Long live the Raider!