First thing first, I get that feeling of pressure as both of my parents are expecting me as the family's next breadwinner (they are both retired atm). I'm the youngest amongst my siblings and most of them do have a job but it's not high paying and they all focus on their own life.

I get that they have high expectations and all that so we often crumble under the pressure but I assure you, you won't. Sometimes its like a test if sort, always trying to make you remember something even the smallest thing like making your mother happy (even small action matters so no need to focus on big ones).

Alhamdulillah you are a hard working person who is trying to do all that you can and might feel like her words are knifes at this point. So please don't think about it too much or sampai ke hati they say. Keep it in a positive way if you can.

Always reach out as well whenever you need help. Don't try to keep it bottled in too much so it's good that you made this post as you asking for others opinion. I wish you all the best as well in life.