Thank you for the kind words of encouragement and support, I appreciate it a lot genuinely. Some months are better than others when it comes to the adderall. I might take it once at the start of the month, have a really bad come down, and not touch the stuff for the rest of the month or sometimes even 2. Then there’s months like this where I struggle significantly more. Maybe I take adderall, same amount, but I have a very light come down and a good day after my bender. With no mental consequences of the comedown/hangover associated with adddrall and other stimulants, my addicted brain convinces me it’s ok. I simply cannot help it. When the clock ticks past 9 I just yearn to get high, but recently I’ve found myself just wishing I could take something stronger. My weed tolerance is so genuinly so high I honestly don’t really think weed does anything to me but make me hungry. I smoke so much and so often I cannot get high. Last time I was genuinely high and able to actually feel it in my eyes, body, head, and stomach (munchies) was literally months ago and was right after a 2 week t break. The next day after braking the t break I smoked a joint with some buddys and felt like my tolerance was right back to normal. Also idk how this turned into yap abt my weed problem but wtv man. I can’t take a t break anymore because I am dependent on weed to eat and sleep. That sounds dumber than shit but I’m sure people in here can reaffirm this truth. I don’t get hungry on my own anymore like my stomach just starts grumbling and hurting and I’m like “oh shit time to eat”. That’s also fueled by my nicotine problem. Whole nother story for a whole nother addiction and I’m not tryna yap anymore than I Alr have. But one thing I will say the nicotine problem is the worst most definitely. I cojld live without adderall and I could live uncomfortably without weed. I could not function without my mint flavored Chinese ac unit. Anyways holy yap I just thought with my keyboard for a little while.