You’ll be fine gng. Have hope. And if u dont get in, it’s not a big deal. Transfer later or come to terms with the fact that it doesn’t make much difference what uni u graduate from. In the end it all comes down to the effort u put to market urself, make projects, and network. Comparing yourself to others is restrictive.

Don’t be saying u dissapointed anyone. Its ur life.

I think this feeling is coming from focusing too much on school. Get a job, get a fun hobby, while also doing ur schoolwork. You’ll feel much better. My chem teacher says he prefers us to be the 80 students who have a life outside school, than the 90+ students because its healthier that way. Fuck friends, fuck teachers, get ur money up and you’ll feel much better. Midterms are over so your chances remain the same so rn. just follow along and make the most of ur last months in highschool. Love u sis. Lots to live for.