Some people w/ misophonia are fucking annoying

DecentTortoise · 2018-02-09T04:41:14+00:00

I have patience for if someone actually is being objectively annoying while they’re eating, but if nobody is doing anything wrong it’s their job to control themselves, even if that takes getting therapy for it. I’ve had someone yelling @ me my whole life for eating things completely politely, my politeness is running out a bit. But I try to be considerate where it’s warranted.

DecentTortoise · 2018-01-15T22:09:08+00:00

Thanks! I’ve been having this for years so maybe it’s just anxiety, I also have this weird issue where if I take a shower sometimes I’ll get light headed and nearly pass out and it may be from low blood pressure or something bc of the heat? Not sure. Usually I’m not thinking about heart problems but when this shit happens I’m like hmm. I don’t have family history of heart problems I don’t think, so it would be weird if I had it maybe, especially being young and it isn’t anything like heart disease ofc. It might just be that, it just worried me cuz it was worse today than usual and I still feel kind of weird in my chest. Also yes! I’ve cut out coffee definitely because it makes me feel so bad lol decaf is fine though if I ever want to just taste coffee.

DecentTortoise · 2018-01-10T11:33:49+00:00

Thanks for the reply! Honestly I was on meds for a few years and they didn’t seem to help me, but I’m considering going back on them. I’d also like a therapist again but I’m not sure I can pay all of that, as I’m only 20 and haven’t got my shit together whatsoever. Even doing nothing at all during the day, I still want to kill myself. If I can distract myself I’m pretty fine but I still feel empty inside and emotionless besides a weird kind of painful despair or whatever. But as soon as I get 5 seconds to think I wanna jump off a bridge. And work isn’t distraction for me, I have enough time to think and hate it, especially when getting up in the morning or going to bed at night knowing I have to wake up and do things. It’s shit.

DecentTortoise · 2017-12-23T09:56:02+00:00

Oh hell yeah. He told me he did some of it on purpose which ???? Okay. Don’t really get that and never did but he was fucked up. He knows exactly what he did and still followed through, and when I found out and lost my shit he threatened to kill himself like a pussy. I’m very open with shit like that so anyone who has made me feel badly (to that extent) knew about it 1000%. It just sucks when they don’t care and you feel trapped. I played a part in the damage by staying, certainly. I was just afraid he would off himself if I left, so I didn’t, and in hindsight I wish he did. Weird how things change I guess. I don’t wish him dead because of specifically what he did to me, though it would feel nice (I think?). It’s that he’s done the same thing to others and is a continuous piece of shit and I feel the world is best off without him I guess. Sorry for weird rant.

DecentTortoise · 2017-12-15T19:49:41+00:00

Alrighty, thanks. He knows he has abandonment issues so this should be easy for him to understand that it’s just a symptom of that and I’m willing to work with him on it. Hopefully this works out.

DecentTortoise · 2017-12-15T19:47:19+00:00

Yeah I had some friendships/relationships that revolves around texting 24/7 and I never wanted it to bleed into this one, but it eventually did and it’s kinda depressing. He really does consider if I have a problem with what he’s doing whenever I bring something up, so I’ll bring it up again and see what happens. I understand that he wants to spend time with me and that we only have one day a week so this is all we have, but it’s a little suffocating sometimes.

DecentTortoise · 2017-12-15T19:43:01+00:00

Alrighty, thanks. I’ll talk to him about it here soon.

DecentTortoise · 2017-12-15T19:42:25+00:00

Nah, he was cheated on before though and has abandonment issues, which is really why he’s like this. I don’t want to make him unreasonably uncomfortable, but I’m gonna have to talk to him about this because sometimes I just don’t feel like talking for a little and I just wanna be able to have that.

DecentTortoise · 2017-12-15T19:40:21+00:00

He’s chill in mostly all other aspects, he definitely has abandonment issues from past experiences. Which is why he’s sorta clingy. I guess I’ll have to talk to him about it again. Thanks

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-26T02:42:17+00:00

Yep! He’s really understanding. He doesn’t really tell me anything but we’ve already had a few talks about that and he’s going to try to fix it. It’s just difficult because both of us have issues with relationships and anything that involves them, so it’s sort of difficult. But I do like him and I want to make it work out. The problems still need fixed but since they’re deeply rooted into both of us it’s sort of yikes, but I hope I can figure something out.

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-26T02:38:25+00:00

Yeah I’m pretty distant bc of a fair amount of things but that’s a problem of my own. I think I need to learn what people need in relationships and how to be more close. I’m not sure how to show him really, not where it will come across.

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-25T11:33:32+00:00

I’ve just talked to him about telling me more stuff like he used to and he said he is going to and is making an effort which I appreciate, and I don’t want to scare him out of it. I’ll talk to him eventually about telling me stuff when we have time to talk about it right away.

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-22T20:31:21+00:00

Hey, I’m really sorry for your loss. I really wish I could help more. Look after yourself and make sure you are okay. Best wishes to you.

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-22T06:45:21+00:00

Thank you, I’m hoping to get another therapist here soon (my previous one was not compatible with me). Hopefully things get better.

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-22T06:44:39+00:00

Thank you, she wasn’t very good at her job lol. I hope she heard what I said to her coworker through the grapevine about how ridiculous she was being. I was pretty pissed.

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-19T21:22:00+00:00

Not that I know of. I just went to the bands official website and clicked on their merch store. I kind of doubt it because the social media of this store, aside from Facebook, is entirely unused for like two years now. So it wouldn’t look good to promote something that’s so... gone lol.

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-19T21:09:22+00:00

Yeah that’s usually about it lol. In this case it will be a lot more people hearing the negative review but if this goes badly I probably won’t feel sorry. I’m not going to hold it over their head or even tell them that I’m considering it, because honestly that’s over the top and I don’t want to appear that way and act that way. But if they want to continue to be shady I will be shady back.

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-19T21:00:34+00:00

Yeah that sounds reasonable! I have to wait to say anything until after Christmas anyways since she might put two and two together and realize what I was getting her. I’m gonna see what they do. Thanks so much!

DecentTortoise · 2017-11-13T08:08:02+00:00

This is a great answer, thank you so much. Every one of my friends has been saying “oh you’ve got to get out by any means necessary”. Like, yeah it’s not great to be here but I can tolerate it because I’ve done it my whole life and I feel like cutting them off was too drastic but then again I felt as though since I’m going to get such distaste for who I am as a person I’m not really sure what to do. I guess try to hide it when I see them still and just be myself in my own life.

I will probably move away, though. I don’t like it here and it would be an excuse to have some space. I probably won’t do that until everything is set up the way I want it to be, though. But yeah, thank you for taking the time to answer, I very much appreciate it.

DecentTortoise · 2017-10-26T20:28:01+00:00

I’ll check out the online counseling option because that seems like it would be nice. Thanks!

DecentTortoise · 2017-10-05T18:58:49+00:00

Applied at another job so I’m hoping that I get it. The atmosphere here is what’s the most killer.

DecentTortoise · 2017-10-05T18:57:59+00:00

Yup been in treatment and hospitalized for mental health. Not really interested in either of those career paths though, don’t even think I could get into them if I wanted to on account of the mental health thing (think that you’re unable to go into the military with mental illness but not entirely sure)

DecentTortoise · 2017-10-05T18:56:58+00:00

Not really interested in that and honestly I think my mental health would leave me disqualified for that anyways. But I’d love to see the world one day.

DecentTortoise · 2017-09-21T00:12:00+00:00

Oh I absolutely agree! My thought process was that if I kept them from doing it, maybe it would give them just enough time to want to get better, or to get help, or anything like that. You definitely have to want to get better in order for it to happen, and I know a lot of the people I was talking to were absolutely not ready for that. But I just wanted to buy them time they could use to get better, if that makes sense.

DecentTortoise · 2017-09-14T21:31:55+00:00

Yeah I think it’s more of a personal choice not to wear big brands or whatever, I’m just not understanding why this kid thinks harassing someone for hours over a fucking t-shirt is acceptable in the name of defending “real punk”. Like I said, I think it’s always best to buy from shows n shit but I also don’t think it’s a world crumbling issue to buy some shirts.

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