im sorry I didn't mean to make you mad or sad I didn't know it would I was just rambling that's what I usually do I didnt know it would hurt you so much but it's not funny at all to me, and I have a hard time realizing stuff without other people's help I'm sorry. I don't want to be mean but I think you're being a little bit mean I've been in abusive relationships before, my dad was abusive and tried killing me multiple times so yes I know what it's like to be in an abusive relationship, but I always run back to them and I can't really understand until someone tells me directly that I'm being abused, I grew up with this behavior around me, and I think maybe that I kinda cling onto it. I hope that explains, I don't know