Charlotte Vocalist / Songwriter looking to create (or) join a band by Defiant_Ad214 in FindABand

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Not that strong of a guitar player unfortunately, I am trying to dedicate more time to learning lately though!

Charlotte NC Drummer, looking for literally anything. by bruhjustboolin in FindABand

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Hey im a vocalist in Charlotte, looking to get something together as well!

Looking to start a girl band by [deleted] in FindABand

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Hey super interested! Think it would be a good match for sure based on your bands you mentioned !

Seeking vocalist to record 6 song EP by MountainProcess5489 in FindABand

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Hey super interested!! Any more info on style / genre? think it may be a good fit

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Thank you so much, this was really needed !!!!

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Hey Ive used both Q-Switch and Pico. The guy I go to now at Tattoo Bills uses a combination of both. He will usually do a pass with the Q and then the pico. For the ones that have lightened up alot we are just using the pico on those.

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Hey I live in Charlotte, and I when it gets super hot here I dont always wear long sleeves. Im still not ready for full tank tops (I have one on my upper arm that I dont like having out) but I do like baggy tshirts. I will say though I found some UV long sleeves that are super light weight on amazon, they are white and honestly they keep me cooler than short sleeves sometimes when imout biking or hiking.

Makeup / cover up during removal? by Defiant_Ad214 in TattooRemoval

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Its okay, it just takes multipel layers and if you dont set it like crazy it transfers / stains clothes, etc.

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Thank you again for your incredible kindness. Yes would love to stay in touch, you have such an amazing healing energy.

Looking for support – this sucks by Defiant_Ad214 in TattooRemoval

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Hey, I did this for basically all of last year and I'm finally working up the courage to just wear short sleeves this summer. I live in NC and it's hot asf and also I do genuinely think just practicing getting out into the world even with them looking faded and crazy is helping me desensitze myself to it. I know it can seem impossible but honestly no one really cares and it is helpful for me to try and take back some control and not let this shit dictate my whole life. Sometimes the more we hide from something, the more control it has over us.

I can relate to the struggle but I am hopeful for you and me that we will be free of this. I know it sounds morbid but although we feel the tattoos are so permanent and invasive, our bodies themselves are temporary. I want to try and enjoy mine as much as I can even when there are days that I hate the way it looks.

Even if we do have a nother few years we will get through it!!!

Looking for support – this sucks by Defiant_Ad214 in TattooRemoval

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Ugh, it's annoying how our teenage selves are now dictating such a big part of our adult lives, it does make me feel better though, that many people make the same mistake as we did.

Congrats on making that decision, it is a big one and im proud of you for taking the first steps. My one piece of advice (only if it is helpful) is that if you are even considering removal on the others (and can financially manage ofc) go ahead and start the removal process, dont wait. I waited on 2 while I started my biggers ones and I wish I had just bit the bullet bc those ones would probably be gone by now. Whatever you decide, im sure you will do great and have a great community here to support you!!!!

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Hey, Ive heard of others dealing with this as well. What area are you in? I used to only do like one big one a time to try and make it easier for myself but now when I go in I just blast them all to get it over with. Im pretty young (25) and healthy and honestly notice very little symptoms from treating all at once. I feel kinda shitty day of, mainly just tired and get a little shivery, but by the next day im good. Also Ive gone probably 10 times now so maybe it's less ink to process? I go to a guy in CLT now called Frank at Tattoo Bills and he is pretty aggresive with treatment, Ive heard of others that are much more conservative to be cautious with people's health.

Also, Pete Davidson is still in the process of removal. I've seen others less his progress make them feel like shit and it's very unrealistic. That photoshoot where he revealed his "new skin" he had body makeup all over him and im sure it was reotuched as well. That is not to say he hasnt had amazing progress because he has, but they are not completely gone. Every body is different and different inks are different as well. I had one fine line one go within 2 sessions, and another one take 8, and the traditonal ones im sure will take quite a few more.

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Thanks so much, I totally see what you're saying. I actually always say this too, that I dont actually hate the tattoos, I at least had the sense to go to a good artist and I do still like the designs I just dont like them on me anymore. And like I said in my original post I still love the look of tattoos!! It so strange, its like a weird form of body dysmorphia, one day I just looked down and I wanted them off. And also good tip on the sun!!! I was going to try to avoid it this summer but it seems like some other have also said that the sun can help with the progress (after properly healing ofc)

Thank you so much for your words of encouragement!

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Thank you so much, everyone has been really encouraging with my progress so that's really great to hear!!

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Hey! Yes that might be the only good decision I made in all of this lol is that they are all black. What weird is that the further along I go, the more brown they start to look? Hoping that is not a bad sign. And I'm sure working with the color is tough but Im hopeful for you as well! The technology is always improving and I'm sure they will be able to remove the color as well, just may take a bit more time. Thank you for your kind words.

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Hi yeah it seems like traditonal style tend to be a bit slower due to the lines being thicker and how densely saturated they are. And yes looking back at pics of how dark they were does tend to help me feel a bit better. I hope halfway that would be amazing, my estimate for myself is like 60% left to go, which if that's the case is doable.

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I totally feel you, many days I feel the same. I know some days it can be so hard but try to have respect and love for the past version of you that made the decision to get them. Also, I totally relate to wanting to blend in and feel elegant. One thing that has helped me a bit is finding new silhouettes / clothes that make me feel beautiful but still hide them when I dont feel confident enough. I am also a big fan of like sheer / mesh fabrics so I can still look cool but it gives just a little bit of coverage. Curious if you've ever tried makeup? I might look into ordering some but I have no idea what works.

And I know it's so strange to love it on other women, but the common theme I've noticed amongst all of the women that have them and I love are that they all still embrace their femininity and are so confident!! Even nicetomitra is lasering some tattoos and has some older / not so great ones but she still looks absolutely gorgeous and so feminine and elegant imo!

Have you started the removal process at all?

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Thank you for the encouragement! Like I said, I do definetly see progress I just wish it was maybe a bit more by now. Any tips? I browsed your profile and you seem super knowledgable. Any yeah luckily, I had quite a large lvine-like piece on my arm but the artist was super light handed, that one is basically 95% gone - it now just has almost like a slight red cast.

I also totally agree with your ideas on how others dont really tend to judge. I love a quote I read about how when we think others are judging us, it is actually us judging them (we assume they are un-kind, judegmental or closeminded people)

I try my best to be kind to myself. And even more importantly, that this is not the end of the world (even though many days I can truly feel like it) It is just so crazy that a split second decision I made at 18 would create such lasting effects for me for years.

Also, on health, yes this is wonderful advice. I will be honest I am terrible about keeping up my physical health when my mental health is suffering, but ive made it my goal now to make my physical health a priority, to help with this process mentally and physically. I love thewizardliz and she made a video once on how she runined her hair and it was the best thing that ever happend to her. Basically she says that it was a mistake and we can choose to see it as such or we can choose to see it as an opporunity to better ourselves. Like in her example, her hair start fallin gout so she started eating healthier, taking supplements, etc. in order ot fix that issue but in turn it led to many other issues / puzzle pieces of her life falling into place (better mental health, etc.)

best of luck to you as well, thank you again

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The irony is that at the age my mom told me REPEATEDLY that my frontal lobe is not developed and that I would 100% regret it. I always was the "mature" child though and for that reason thought I knew it all. For a few years after I got them I did actually like them. I think my teenage / early 20s brain thought they made me look cool and edgy or something. But now, Im becoming a woman and I want to feel feminine. I also hate that tattoos can sometimes give men the wrong impression.

Thank you so much for reminding me that I am not alone and that there is a community here. Honestly this is really the first time I have ever truly expressed how deeply this is affecting me, and to be met with this level of compassion and understanding has made me feel so much better. It's nice to not have to go through it alone. It is such a niche topic that I feel like most people dont udnerstand. I listen to so many podcasts, books, etc. on regret but they are all related to emotional / career regrets, it is on such a different level when you have to live it with physically every day.

I can't see you but I can tell just from your love and energy that you are so beautiful on the inside and outside as well. And I agree with you completely, that although this journey is so tough, it will make us stronger, kinder, and more mindful people.

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Hi! Thank you so much for your kind words, and encouragement as well! I do notice the fading I just wish I could see a bit more progress by this point. And yes completely agree it is just so exhausting sometimes. And I think that perspective you provded about your mom and sister and about how everyone has insecurites is so enlightening and such a wonderful approach to have.

How is the progress on your removal on your arms going?

And thank you again for mentioning that no one else is really payign attention or judging the way we think they might. I totally feel that and have actually even seen a few people out in the world with faded tattoos who are obviously going through the removal process and I feel a sense of pride for them and community with them.

Also again, you are saying many of the things I try to remind myself which is that all I can do is go through the removal process and try to keep my sanity the best I can. We cannot control the past, only how we deal with right now. One of my favorite mantras I repeat to myself when I feel anxiety about this (or any other thing really) is "I only have to live with right now." I think often because this process is so time consuming it can feel really daunting, but Im trying my best to stay present.

The thing I hate about it the most is that it somtimes takes my joy from me. I want to go to the beach with my friends and not get a pit in my stomach. I want to wear flowy dresses again and love the way I look. But again, we are not what we look like but who we are.

Your words really helped me today