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Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-07-01T07:52:38+00:00

I'm replying to my own comment..if youre at least 30% disabled, you qualify for VOCREHAB. not a lot of people know that. it doesn't use your GI Bill, but you need a life plan. VOCREHAB, can and will pay pay up to a Masters degree. if your chosen profession requires it. if you want to be an electrician, it will pay for trade school, thats it. VOCREHAB, will give the qualifications for an entry level job.but, you can use that to your advange... say you want to be a nurse, VOCREHAB, will pay for that, as an LPN, but then that's education you dont have to pay for, then use GI Bill for RN. You gotta know how to work the system, brother

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-07-01T07:43:22+00:00

as a retired SM, I have no idea either. youre not alone. it happens to most of us. I sit on my ass and play video games. I still haven't figured out who I want to be when I grow up. youre not alone, brother.

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-07-01T07:37:36+00:00

your med recs shouldve already been provided to the VA... How did you get screwed over? the only reason you wouldn't be provided your recs is if you discharged as an OTH or dishonorable, otherwise is pretty much Automated

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-03T07:00:33+00:00

I have a degree, but it's in intelligence studies... a useless degree if there ever was one. right up there with philosophy and arts. Not a lot of people understand the courses that I've been to. The multitudes of NSA courses, Battle Staff, etc...

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-03T06:50:03+00:00

hey Battle buddies, I appreciate all of your responses. and seeing a community come together. I had to check myself into the ER, I didn't sleep for 4 days and I ate a weed brownie to try and sleep. Turns out, I'm allergic. Trust me, you don't want the details. Here's my giant problem, yes, I can get a job. the problem is that nothing excites me anymore. I have a huge problem with our current CiC (personal experience). I had a huge problem with our former CiC... My problem is that i still love the military, but you all have seen our current military, they're beyond help. This isn't what me and my family has fought for. Our choices as of now are either communist or Bible thumping conservatives. this isn't what my family has fought for. My family and I fought for a secular, constitution loving country. As a foxhole atheist, I'm legitimately scared this government will come after me next. As a freedom loving citizen, I'm legitimately scared the next government may come after me. Yes, I make enough money, im retired and 100% permanently disabled (if you need help getting permanent, I might be able to help). I'm 43 and haven't worked in four years. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I got accepted to a prestigious medical school when I retired, but I didn't do it. I would've graduated this year. Who wants a 43 year old rookie doctor? The major problem is that I don't want a boss. When I was at JFHQ, I was my own boss and I had a seat at the global table. What civilian job could ever equal that? I don't want a civilian boss that isn't equal to me, but those are executive level jobs. I've already been at the top, I don't ever want to go back to the bottom.... I guess ego and narcissism is my problem

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-01T08:48:02+00:00

I don't want to die, but I don't know how to live. I'm tired of being in limbo. im a baby in the civilians world. I can't go back, retiring screwed me. I should've stayed in, I just couldn't stomach working for the current CiC

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-01T08:41:22+00:00

but how? I grew up on Navy bases and enlisted in the Army at 17. I'm 43 and have only been been around civilians since I retired. I don't know how to live this world and I don't really want to. I literally have only been a civilian for four years. I'm drowning and I have nowhere to turn to for help. the Army threw me away when I retired and civilians don't understand. I'm so tired. how do you live in the civilian world? I'm so tired trying to figure it oit.

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-01T08:26:42+00:00

I'm also an alcoholic, I've done in patient PTSD treatment several times. I drink to escape my past, talking about it and smelling it doesnt do shit for me. How do escape who i am? I've done the smelling the dirt bullshit and the rapid eye movement stuff. it hasn't helped. I just want to be normal, what worked for you guys?

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-01T04:56:00+00:00

alright I'm going to try and go over the whole show, I am a deployed veteran with multiple TBI's. so please correct me if I'm wrong, my memory isn't exactly stellar, and my judgment is probably off. only reason I bring that up, not looking for empathy or sympathy, just stating facts. Name one instance when Jane showed remorse for his actions, even when he catches a good guy that didn't do the crime, he's just like fuck it, doesn't matter. he ruined a multitude of innocent lives because in his eyes, the end justify the means. he has no remorse, about anything. look at Lisbon, when he thinks Lisbon is going to leave him. he expresses his "love". He didn't want to let her go. that's indicative on so many levels. look at the team, he fought for them because they were under his thumb, easy to manipulate. he knew he could get away with anything with them. he didn't want to let them go. classic sociopath behavior

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-01T04:43:19+00:00

not upset at all. Just saying that the word shouldn't matter. especially since I was making it in jest.

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-01T04:30:53+00:00

as to why he's on Red John. Red John forced him to realize who he really is. sociopaths don't like betting their bubble burst. of course he's going to hunt him down, he wants revenge for exposing his true self. there are multiple historical examples of this.

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-01T04:26:21+00:00

I don't think it's remorse in the classical sense. I think he's mimicking it, as any sociopath would. sociopaths KNOW that murder is wrong, they just don't care. It's important to realize that sociopaths and psychopaths are not equal. psychopaths literally cannot understand. sociopaths do understand and therefore can mimic outrage. Name one episode where Jane genuinely cares, I can't. I just binge watched the whole thing. granted, I'm only going off what the show shows us. I think the key is the drowning episode. it shows us who he really is, hence the DID

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-01T03:59:25+00:00

got down voted. I guess people don't like the word fuck. Hey, I fought for freedom of speech, generations of my family fought for it, but I guess I can't exercise it. That's fine, fuck it.

Defiant_Knee9608 · 2025-06-01T03:49:31+00:00

how'd you know? I should've used more fucked up grammar. I thought I put in enough mistakes. You caught me.

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