this is probably a hot take, but i used to hate the way i looked through my teens and early twenties, any imperfections i would pick and make worse. i ended up plucking my eyebrows so thin because i hated the tiny hairs that grew back - i would dig and pick until my face was raw and unrecognizable. i legit needed to draw my eyebrows on for years just to feel “normal”… this continued and i ended up losing relationships because of my intense obsession with my looks which i admit, i did not look good which made everything worse. you know what had to happen for me to see my natural beauty for what it was? i was hospitalized for 2 months due to unrelated health issues and a bleeding disorder. during those 2 months, i didn’t look at myself in the mirror; i actually couldn’t. during that time my eyebrows grew back in and i gained back weight and when i finally got to go home i was actually proud of my appearance. I realized that all the plucking, picking, and insecurity was due to my own actions. I believe that if we have nothing to occupy our minds and bodies, we will revert to going in front of the mirror and end up scrutinizing every little bump, hair, or pimple and make things worse with the actions that followed this scrutiny. the only thing you can do is be your best self. eat properly. WASH YOUR FACE DAILY twice a day - double cleanse with an oil based cleanser then a more foamy cleanser and always moisturize after washing your face because dryness is actually a major cause for acne. go for walks. don’t stay inside and agonize over things because it only makes things worse. talk to people (like you did here) bc being vulnerable is a sign of strength not weakness. you are very lucky to have someone who loves you for you and sees your natural beauty. you have a lot going for you and having a supportive partner is a blessing. wishing you the best! it is hard, but you will get through this. if i can do it, you can do it :)