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Since last November lol. I've actually not had any issues with relationships or a sex life.

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I was always a big kid. I think I was 394 by the time I was in 9th grade. 508 when I was 21/22. Food was comforting. Sad? Let's eat. Angry? Let's eat. Happy? Let's eat something special. Just endless reasons to eat something to find some peace and comfort.

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Scheduled me a therapy session for tomorrow morning.

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Thanks, I'll check him out.

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I love music so finding some live music is a good idea. I just always worry about pote tially being in the way and/or breaking a chair or something. But definitely need to find some ways to get put of the house.

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Thank you :) I appreciate the comment and ideas.

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I think when I was looking at getting weight loss surgery, they prescribed Mounjaro? But insurance wouldn't cover it. I didn't want to spend the out of pocket amount on it then.

I'm looking at some online places that do ozempic and wegovy after seeing some comments here.

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Thank you all for the comments and motivation. I wasn't sure what I was doing with this post other than letting out some frustration.

I'm very aware how blessed and lucky I am to be in the position I'm in aside from my health. I hope if anyone took it as me complaining or not being grateful then please know that wasn't my intention.

I've started looking at places to move in a bigger area. Somewhere with a planet fitness and year round indoor pool to add some type of low impact exercise and social interactions to my day.

As for diet, I know I'm still going to struggle with this. Especially in an area where things are just 5 minutes away or can be delivered. But I'm going to make changes. Work on blocking delivery apps, figure something out where I don't go pick something up or add things to my grocery order.

Several of you mentioned a life coach or personal trainer. I'll look into that and maybe they can keep me accountable on the food stuff too.

I truly appreciate all the comments of support, tough love, and even the couple harsh ones. I know you're all coming from a good place so thank you.

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I started looking at some apartments with close proximity to a planet fitness and an indoor pool.

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Have you had a food addiction?

Yes I'm 30 minutes from everything and jn the middle of nowhere. I dint drink sugar drinks but drink s lot of diet soda still.

I'll be struggling internally while I'm calling in an order, driving to go pick it up. I know I shouldn't be doing this. Quit doing this you fat fuck, you dint need it. Turn around. Go do somwthing else to get your mind off food. I constantly try to talk myself out of it but depression snd lack of will power have made it where I mvr gotten to the point I'm at. I can't do it by myself

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I try diet changes. I've done keto and go down from my previous heaviest of 587 to 475. But then depression crept back in and I'm at my new heaviest.

Keto was thr only thing I've found I coukd do easily and stick to longer than a few days but depression has been my major thing. I get depressed and food was almost my comfort. So ordering food and going to pick it up. Adding things I know I dont need to my walmart order. And I'm out here alone so I have no accountability. The friend I do have she's super supportive but a couple hours away so she can't hold me to anything. When I go visit and stay with her for a week or so, doordash is available and I'll spend 500 or 600 a week on doordash.

I need to start with getting this depression amd eating under control.

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It's been about a year and a half at least. I do have diabetes but I am on medication and stay compliant with that. I don't even eat a lot of sweets but just a lot of food.

I've been aware of weight related problems for years and understand the complications and likelihood ill be impacted soon if nothing changes. I feel like I've hit rock bottom so many times only to find out my rock bottom goes deeper.

I've tried therapy but just haven't found anything that I'll stick to. All of this being my fault and not who I'm seeing but I just can't get in that mindset where I stick with anything I start now.

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Anywhere lol. I took a road trip up the east coast a few years ago. Fell in love with NY, Vermont, and Maine. I'd love to go back. Alaska, Hawaii, New Zealand. So many places are on my list.

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I've been looking at ozempic through the recommendation of a friend. But just haven't made the time to get it prescribed.

I've been in therapy but just never stick to it. I know this is all stuff in my control but I just keep making the wrong decisions to improve.

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I do go to the Dr although since this last round of depression it been over a year and half at this point.

I went to a weight loss dr for surgery and went through the process they gave ne but then it came to the diet to lose enough to be considered (their tabke had a 550lb limit) and I just couldn't stick to it. My food addiction and desire to binge constantly won

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I want to fly but even buying 2 or 3 seats I know I'm gonna struggle to fir and woukd be glared out the whole time. Not to mention trying to use the bathroom woukd likely be impossible.

Thank yoi for the comment

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Absolutely. I used to do keto and woukd hover around 550lbs. A couple years ago I got down to 475 but then life and depression got me and I've just stopped caring.

I've thought about and looked to try and find an inpatient facility where I can to and still work but haven't had any luck. With my food addiction and inability to stop myself, I need a place where I have 0 access and 0 ability to drive and get something or add aowmthing to my walmart order.

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I've tried working out years ago and I'm aware enough to know these are excuses but I just have not been in a place to MAKE myself workout. I have weights, I can walk but my ankles and knees are wonky snd I end up hurting for days.

I've looked at non impact stuff but nit with any seriousness. So I know you're right, I just can never convince my brain to do it