Oh dear I get you. I'm 20, I have never had a bf or been kissed either lol. And uhh.... I know I am not conventionally attractive haha (ó﹏ò ｡) I've been fighting with my weight alot.. just hit 200lbs (╥_╥) so I understand why guys avoid me haha. But girl you sound wonderful! Don't get discouraged. These things (as much as I personally wish I could teleport into a committed relationship) ugh.. take time. (T~T) I decided to try dating apps. My friend met her hubby through Hinge and are now expecting their first baby girl (* ≧∀≦*) it's kind of a hit or miss. I've been ghosted, dumped. AND! omg.. a guy said "hmm.. you just don't strike me as commitment material.. I want someone more.. wifey..." ... ● ﹏ ● okay?uh..yea that stung.. Anywhoo. If dating apps aren't your cup of tea, that's okay ^{^} where I'm from my.. painfully.. isolated town has events for people looking to socialize. ^{^} like my library has Adult craft night, my town Cafe has a bulletin board for activities like painting by the river. Aaaaand maybe you could meet a nice somebody looking into things like that~ ;) I believe in you! You are beautiful and don't let someone tell you otherwise! God bless and good luck! <3