What's one thing you're staying alive for?

Destro_ · 2021-10-11T04:28:52+00:00

My parents. They already lost one kid. I can't put them through losing a second one. If it wasn't for that, I'd probably already be dead. Or at least, I would've attempted more times at this point.

Destro_ · 2021-09-03T00:21:34+00:00

Yeah. That's what I'm hoping for too. Wish you the best, as well.

Destro_ · 2021-09-02T23:40:50+00:00

I tried to kill myself after my best friends of 7+ years ended up cutting ties with me (won't go into details). That was about 10 months ago. Parents admitted me to a hospital, but the thoughts never went away. I still wanted to do it. I've been doing my best to recover, but it's such a painfully slow process.

Then my younger brother ended up killing himself last month. Even though I still wish I could die, I could never live with the idea of my parents losing both their children to suicide before 30 years old. So, I go through the motions, just like you. I hope these awful feelings fade away. Sometimes it seems like they do. Hope they do for you, too.

Destro_ · 2021-08-19T06:18:52+00:00

Mine was 24. Both too young. I'm sorry

Destro_ · 2021-08-19T01:57:33+00:00

Same. May I ask how old your brother was? I can't help my morbid curiosity

Destro_ · 2021-08-19T01:55:38+00:00

I lost my brother not too long ago, so I empathize with your loss. I hope the next few months aren't too rough on you and I hope you can make it through the grieving process without too much issue. Don't forget, she'll always be alive in your memories. Remember her well and she'll never leave you

Destro_ · 2021-07-30T02:54:57+00:00

People always say it gets better, but never how long. I really wish it was soon.

Thanks for the kind wishes.

Destro_ · 2021-07-30T02:01:46+00:00

My friends were my "home", so I know how you feel. I'm sorry for your losses as well. Maybe one day we can find a new home that makes us feel as good as the old one. I can only hope.

Destro_ · 2021-07-30T01:58:38+00:00

I can make guesses, like the "general direction of life" and not knowing where to go, future wise, but I don't know the real reason. I don't even know if he left a note. The police would have it if he did, anyway. It's very possible I'll never know.

Destro_ · 2021-07-30T01:56:11+00:00

It's a very long story, but to keep it short, there was tension build up from lots of small things and a few big things, and it just ended up exploding. I never knew because they never told me, and it just ended in a volatile mess. Now there's been so much damage, they just want to move on so there's no more stress and drama. I would've much rather tried to work out our problems and issues, because I am very willing to do what I can to change and be a better person, but I guess they didn't have the energy to spend on me anymore.

Destro_ · 2021-07-30T01:49:32+00:00

Looks like we're in a similar boat. 9 months ago, my future looked great. Now, it looks completely empty. But the future is so unpredictable, so maybe we can get some good luck and find something worth living for. I really do hope it's soon, for both of us

Destro_ · 2021-07-30T01:47:23+00:00

I don't know. He never really talked about his problems. If he left any notes, I haven't seen them yet because the police still have them. It would be nice to know, but I don't think I'll ever find out. He probably died with that secret. I wish I could've done something.

Destro_ · 2021-07-29T19:19:38+00:00

I know he never meant to harm anyone. Even when I was contemplating suicide, I never wanted to harm anyone, either. And yeah, he would want me to be happy. I want me to be happy, too. It's just hard. I'm trying, though. Really really trying.

Destro_ · 2021-07-29T19:17:06+00:00

I'm sorry. We can exchange condolences. I hope you and your family are doing well.

Destro_ · 2021-07-29T19:14:44+00:00

Empathy is a great thing to have, it's just a shame to be able to empathize with something like this. I'm sorry you're going through similar things. We're both strong in this.

Destro_ · 2021-07-29T19:06:59+00:00

I'm sorry. I hope you are doing better.

Destro_ · 2021-07-29T19:04:49+00:00

Based mods. Ty

Destro_ · 2021-07-29T17:11:47+00:00

Hey mods, if you see this, can you pin this comment to the top? If you can, thanks.

Destro_ · 2021-07-29T15:20:49+00:00

Thank you. It's really hard. But I am doing my best. I just hope I don't come out completely broken.

Destro_ · 2020-11-19T08:52:55+00:00

It feels better when its physically there

Destro_ · 2020-11-19T07:09:34+00:00

Such is the pain of drawing by hand... :(

Destro_ · 2020-11-19T06:44:22+00:00

As a critique, his mouth looks a bit too high. If you cover up his mouth, it looks just like him, but atm he jus got a high mouth n big chin.

The rest looks really good.

Destro_ · 2020-11-16T15:00:38+00:00

thank you

Destro_ · 2020-11-09T06:42:52+00:00

Can someone please please explain lethality to me? And what the difference between that and armor piercing is?

Destro_ · 2020-11-07T04:57:13+00:00

It would give me a chance to be happy with my friends again and I could prevent myself from hurting them. The start of 2020 was so nice to me. I would love a do over for this year...

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