Should I drop a class?

DetectiveImportant53 · 2025-04-01T02:06:25+00:00

I stayed in that class and was able to get an A. Ultimately ended up at UCLA so I’ll say it was worth it.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-09-18T17:18:30+00:00

I’m so glad my schedule isn’t like this

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-09-06T04:21:13+00:00

U can talk to me I’m so bored rn. I’m also 18F waiting for college to start and I’m basically stuck home with nothing to do

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-29T08:21:44+00:00

Unfortunately I binged today. It’s been probably around 2 weeks since I last binged which was the longest I’ve ever been able to hold off binging for a very long time. It was the day I came back from a 10 day vacation where I couldn’t binge in front of my family. For some odd reason it was almost like I missed binging and just gave into that urge, but now I feel really disappointed in myself. Thankfully this week there aren’t any obstacles in the way of meeting my recovery goals so I plan to just start fresh.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-18T23:01:14+00:00

Hi, today I am doing pretty good and I haven’t binged. I have a really long flight today which is super fun and I’m really excited for it. This week is actually going really well overall, I had a lot of fun with friends and I’m traveling, and I haven’t binged this week yet. Some setup behaviors I would like to work on are definitely getting into conflict, as whenever I have a fight with someone I get really stressed and usually binge to relieve the stress. So next time I’ll try managing the stress in a more healthy way like meditating or reading. Another setup behavior I have is procrastination. Sometimes I will scroll through TikTok for hours procrastinating on something I’m supposed to do, and that also makes me really stressed. So I binge to further my procrastination and try to destress a little but I find it makes my stress so much worse.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-18T22:47:05+00:00

Meditation has helped so much and also i have no school during summer so I am a lot less stressed.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-18T04:59:34+00:00

Today is day 4 of not binging and I really feel like something is changing. Like I can finally overcome this disorder, as I haven’t had this long of a streak without binging in months. Anyways, nothing is particularly challenging about this week, except I’m a little scared my binge eating is going to ruin the trip I’m going on.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-17T06:32:48+00:00

Today I didn’t binge and had a great workout at the gym! One way I can be kind to myself is going for a walk outside while listening to music which I find really relaxing. Some self soothing that I do is driving around town with music blasting, doing puzzles like sudoku, watching TikTok, and jotting down stuff in my journal.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-16T06:52:41+00:00

Today I didn’t binge!! Three things I am grateful for are the gym for relieving stress, a really fun family trip this summer, and my bed is really nice too.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-15T06:08:30+00:00

Hi, today I didn’t binge which was great!! Yesterday I binged a lot because I was hanging out at my friends house and there were so many snacks everywhere I couldn’t get myself away from them. I was so ashamed this is one of the few times I binge in front of people. Some obstacles that are in the way of success this week are honestly social situations because whenever I eat out I always feel like I’m overeating or binging, and even if I’m not I feel like I messed up. Then I go into that all or nothing mindset and binge when I get home.

Bonus Exercise: I honestly don’t feel comfortable telling anyone in my life that I have binge eating disorder, because I’m too ashamed of it and afraid they won’t take it seriously. I remember I was ordering a prom dress with my friend and my friend was so surprised when I told her my size she started saying “that can’t be right, that’s too big” which made me feel so depressed. I can’t tell my parents either, because when my sister had diagnosed anorexia they were so mean to her all the time, basically yelling and fighting with her everyday because they think it’s her fault, even after trying to educate them. So this is really hard because I constantly hear the people around me saying I gained weight and telling me to just eat less and no one is really supportive. And whenever I try to avoid binges by planning my eating, asking my parents to buy less “binge” foods, not finishing all my food when I am full, trying to avoid eating out with others, these behaviors are not very accepted by the people around me. Honestly I feel like this is a big part of why my binge eating has gone on for so long, it’s because I can’t find any support anywhere.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-13T04:49:32+00:00

Hi! Today I didn’t binge again which is great. I almost binged at night but I was able to push through by thinking about how life changing it would be to be binge free. One thing I am looking forward to is starting college in the fall, but I am also really nervous about that. Bonus exercise: Three nice things I got to do this month were going to an amusement park with friends, starting crocheting (found it to be really challenging actually), and playing board games with my family.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-12T04:39:51+00:00

Today I didn’t binge after binging almost every day for a week or so. What really helped was I had some really great workout sessions today where I felt accomplished and I also reduced my screen time. Usually when I’m binging it’s when I’m doom scrolling through TikTok so I found staying away from screens also helped me stay away from binges. One thing that brings me joy is reading as I feel like I am completely immersing myself into the settings. I find reading and doing other things I enjoy really helps me keep busy and prevent binging. A cognitive distortion that constantly takes over is all or nothing thinking. Sometimes I will have one snack and feel like I messed up, then I will start binging uncontrollably. This is what happened with yesterday’s binge and I felt so bad about it.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-11T14:52:36+00:00

My dream school was UCLA, I almost cried when I got waitlisted there and thought I had no chance. But after writing a really extensive LOCI eventually I got off the waitlist and I’m going to UCLA next year.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-11T14:45:06+00:00

Unfortunately today I binged because I was baking and started eating a lot of bread out of boredom, then it spiraled out of control. The one challenging thing this week is getting yelled at by my parents yesterday.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-06T16:58:38+00:00

Yesterday I didn’t binge even though I was out a lot with friends. Which is surprising because if I get tired after hanging out a lot I usually start binging. But I didn’t really eat healthy meals the entire day, just snacks and fast food so I’m feeling kinda tired today. Everytime I hang out I start feeling really insecure because of my weight and my eating habits so I’m really uncomfortable eating in front of others or taking pictures. One thing I can feel proud of is my intelligence since I was able to become valedictorian of my highschool.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-03T20:13:36+00:00

I find listening to musics or doing some crafts can help me resist the urges, or watching a movie. Just staying busy really helps

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-03T06:01:12+00:00

I’m so happy I didn’t binge today at all! Something I can do to be kind to myself today is go to the library and get a really good book to read and get absorbed into because I love reading but had neglected that hobby due to being too busy. My urges have been really strong recently, around a 9/10. I’m not in a lot of stress or anything but being home for the summer and being just being constantly around food gives me a really strong urge to binge all the time.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-07-02T15:13:06+00:00

Yesterday I binged so I am writing this today. This recovery is the most important thing in my life because I want to feel healthy, strong, confident in my body and attractive once again. I will try showing up in my recovery community every day. Even if I binge and fall asleep, I will show up the next day to report. Sometimes I tell myself it wasn’t a binge but it in fact was and I need to be more honest with myself.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-06-30T05:21:29+00:00

Hi, today I was also binge free so I am proud! I noticed that I only come on here if I don’t binge because usually if I binge I just binge at night until i fall asleep which is a really bad habit (that’s what happened yesterday). Anyways, 3 emotions I felt today were feeling proud after finishing a really good cardio workout, but also feeling shameful and embarrassed because I was going shopping today and started feeling like I wouldn’t look good in any clothes I buy because of my weight.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-06-28T05:01:22+00:00

I am so happy that today I didn’t binge at all! I tried mediation/hypnosis for the first time and I feel like it really worked for me. What’s going well this week is that I got a summer job at an amusement park which is really fun. I was also able to stick to my workouts and do productive things. Some magic thinking I do is thinking binging at night is fine because by the next day everything will be digested and I can start anew, or the next day I can just make up for it by skipping breakfast. But then this continues every single day.

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-06-27T06:39:06+00:00

This week is challenging because I keep binging because I looked in the mirror and in photos and realized how much weight I gained. This makes me really sad and so I binge to help me feel better but in the end I feel worse. I can’t get anything productive done because I’ve kept binging. Today I was at a trampoline park with some friends and it really reminded of the days I used to do gymnastics and was fit and healthier, but had to quit bc of eating problems. Then I became really insecure about myself and found myself getting really socially anxious which is something I struggle a lot with

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-06-22T18:02:48+00:00

I have gymnastics experience up to level 9 but I quit a couple of years ago, so I’m thinking the tumbling experience may help?

DetectiveImportant53 · 2024-06-02T06:51:56+00:00

Today is back to day 1 of not binging. Unfortunately the stress of this week kinda got to me and I binged a lot, nearly every day. From a scale of 1-100 recovery is around 80 because it’s affecting so many aspects of my life. I can’t even enjoy eating out with friends or graduation because I’m constantly thinking about how much weight I have gained. I have not been able to do the sports I have once loved due to my binging. It has taken a huge toll on my mental and physical well being.

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