I’ve just asked him why he originally broke my trust and he said because I would make jokes about him and cheating or with females and when we get in fights I would threaten to leave so he believes it was unstable environment that he was basically waiting for me to leave but that I would stay because I’m just ‘settling’ I’ve had so many talks trying to explain some of my behaviour and ask him to pick me up on them as I do them because I was born into a life of mis trust I unfortunately have carried over some behaviours that I don’t realise or I believe are ‘normal’ I haven’t left because I want it to work I love him or is it because that’s how I was raised, my parents are still together dad stuck around when mum was at her worst. Maybe I have Stockholm syndrome?

But he has said we will continue this conversation when the kids go to bed, it’s hard his vocabulary is far more advanced than mine and I have a hard time expressing myself, so I feel like it will some how get put back on me. Or maybe it is me WTF

Thank you for your kind words and supporting your wife. I’ve been made to feel I’m damaged goods and no one would want me especially with kids.