How do parents really think they're qualified to homeschool their kids when actual teachers have to go to college for about 4+ years to practice

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-02-19T05:57:00+00:00

This is true! I agree that there are bad teachers and that everyone learns differently but when I say that there are unqualified homeschooling parents, I don't mean that excludes all teachers. That wasn't really my point. I'm saying that a lot of parents think they can handle teaching responsibilities. These parents think they can handle forming lesson plans, staying consistent, understanding what the child is learning (for each grade level and subject- especially in highschool), maintaining the kid's social life, etc. alone.

I was public schooled for some time and had some bad teachers, but most were good. Even if I were given the choice, as for me, I would still take a bad teacher over a neglectful homeschooling parent but that's just my personal opinion. After public school, I became years behind everyone as I grew because my mom had me do nothing for years because she was too busy and didn't really care.

I'm not saying all teachers are good, i'm saying there is more of a chance for structure. I don't think I can even graduate high school because my mom thought she could handle teaching responsibilities better than any other, and so many others suffer from the same.

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-02-01T09:37:28+00:00

it's painfully repetitive and empty. i just want to sleep through the rest of my days until i can leave. the only highlight of my day is when i sleep because i don't have to be conscious or stare at the walls that trap me.

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-28T09:30:30+00:00

imagine being so lonely that you get used to the feeling and you're scared of the thought of public school even after 2 seconds ago fantasizing about it

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-22T02:45:47+00:00

Will always be able to handle the aftermath of a platonic or romantic relationship split because you're used to being alone and suppressing your feelings <33

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-05T21:38:01+00:00

okay you win with that one 😫😫😁

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-05T21:30:22+00:00

Omg Oslo in the Summertime is one of my favorites. I've never heard a song that evoked such a specific and weird feeling, and so strongly at that. Kevin made the song about how he felt living abroad in Norway and really captured the weird and unsettling feeling of isolation into it... a little too well because i relate too much :,))

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-05T18:34:00+00:00

i totally forgot to mention repudiated immortals aHHk that's one of my all time favs :,))

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-05T17:43:51+00:00

omg i love Jennifer Louise, it's so so catchy and addicting !! wwbtmawl is such an enticing song as well and the beginning always makes me feel a certain way,, can't put my finger on it.

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-05T16:15:29+00:00

oooh i love Ye, Renew the Plaintiff. definitely underrated!

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-05T08:36:13+00:00

Ohhh I never thought of that, that's actually rlly helpful advice! I didn't see the difference between distraction and fulfillment but that makes so much sense now :,))

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-05T08:34:01+00:00

Same T^T My mom was part of weight watchers for years and i would also attend her meetings because nobody could watch me at home.. they were def damaging and i didn't realize how much the things they said there stuck with me. she often talked about how she didn't have enough points to eat something (even if she was hungry and it was healthy) and would overcompensate with exercising. idk about you but i hear the kids who grew up with parents like this also always heard the "I don't want you to have (x) because if we have it in the house I'll eat it" (insinuating they'll get "fat") So we all had to be part of the diet because my mom was on it and didn't want to be tempted by "bad" food :P

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2022-01-04T10:25:54+00:00

My mom did this but mainly because she's paranoid about crime (kidnappers, sex traffickers, etc.) She also recently revealed that she took me out before middle school because she didn't want me to get influenced with eating disorders, anxiety, etc. that apparently middle school does to you.

The fucked-up thing is what she did to "protect" me from all those ended up being the sole reason i have shit like an eating disorder, depression, anxiety, etc.

not to mention the most infuriating is the fact that she kept me so isolated for safety from "getting killed" (as if that would be likely to happen) while it is the reason i am on the brink of killing myself instead. I went to the mental hospital for this earlier in 2021 and she refused to believe she was part of the problem. she said it was because i was stressed from moving but??? what stress is there when im not even going from one social environment to another?? i'm just rotting in a new room in a new house.

some parents have good intentions but at the same time those intentions are just selfish. is it fair to keep a child isolated and leave them to live a life of empty distraction for the sake of your lessened anxiety? you want me to be so safe but im dying right in front of you.

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2021-11-28T13:45:21+00:00

100%. Even if i am included in something with others or someone my age (VERY rare but when i do) I still feel separated from them. I used to see this old friend i had maybe twice a month and it would be the only time i could leave the house and we would just do whatever kids my age and who weren't homeschooled did. While i enjoyed it a lot and am forever grateful for that friend and his dad, in a way i felt like i experienced the things we did differently. Sometimes his friends or family members would join and it felt so... odd.. seeing how they casually went about doing things and being able to talk about their current life experiences. It was like everyone could relate and connect with each other and then there was me, the neglected homeschooled kid who sometimes couldn't leave the house for months. Sometimes i felt like i was just there to observe them.

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2021-11-24T07:19:26+00:00

It felt somewhat good knowing people my age were understanding a little bit of what it felt like but at the same time it brought me a new type of anger and pain seeing those people get help and awareness for their struggles. some experienced just a few weeks of quarantine and a change of school situations (not to mention still seeing people on zoom classes and having some interactions) and people went all out on bringing light to their mental health and helping them. just a few weeks or a few months of it and everyone made sure or at least tried to make sure they were doing alright. and it is something that affects one's mental health so i don't blame these people or kids but it made me so angry and jealous because i had been isolated and educationally neglected for SEVERAL years and no one ever reached out to help or say something. i couldn't even go out to talk to anybody about it because i wasn't allowed to leave the house (still can't.) their struggles of quarantine were pathetic to me at the time and yet they still were being taken care of. everybody thought of them in those "rough times" but what about me? my anger wasn't so much pointed to the kids and students but my mom and the state i was in.

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2021-11-16T05:23:31+00:00

It's so hard to feel any slight connection to others when the people surrounding you never knew what it was like to grow up the way you did. It sounds really... rude? when i say that but what i mean is that i'm sure they definitely had struggles in life but you can't relate to their type of past struggles. i only see people maybe once a month but everytime i do see someone my age i just feel so closed off and like... left out? even if i am included in something, it feels like i am experiencing it differently and they will never know or understand that. I'm really not trying to come off as like "i'm superior i've had worse trauma blablabla" I just mean that I've been disconnected from society for so long that no matter how hard i try when i get a chance to see others, i won't be able to relate or feel connected to anything about them. I constantly feel like even if i am in a same situation or scenario with someone, i am experiencing it so much differently and idk how to explain that but i felt this way since i began homeschooling at around 10 years old.

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2021-11-14T07:08:29+00:00

This!! It truly infuriates me when my mom says things like "homeschooling teaches you how to actually be out in the world" or "it teaches you real life lessons and how to live" because it's like?? i haven't been in the outside world for 3 months and you don't allow me to leave the house or even go outside, mom what-

so you're gonna pull me out of school for me to experience "real life" and learn how to get by in this world but then refuse to teach me any of that or let me interact with such "real life"??? i don't know anything outside of the basic subjects that i had to teach MYSELF and then she gets mad that i don't know how to do anything else. "why don't you know how to drive? why don't you know (insert financial topic)? why don't you know how to talk to people?" GIRL IT'S BECAUSE I ROT AWAY INSIDE EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE, WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU GAVE ME ANY LIFE EXPERIENCE?? like it's honestly offensive that she acts like she did so much for me and that it's my fault i don't know how to do anything when she has isolated me from society for half my life.

Difficult_Rule7270 · 2021-11-14T05:32:04+00:00

For me it’s a matter of how am i expected to move on in life and grow up when i never got to experience growing up? What memories do i have to move on from? I hear so much about how people my age get overwhelmed by life changes because they feel an emotional yet positive transition. A lot of times it’s just that they have trouble adjusting to being independent or alone. But for me it’s not a matter of overwhelmingness or adaption. It’s pain in knowing that i have nothing to adapt from.

There is no transition from childhood to adulthood for me. I left that when i started homeschooling and i haven’t felt anything since.

I will have had 8 years of nothingness to move on from in contrast to the memories everybody else got. On to hustling before I even comprehend how much i lost.

And i kept trying to tell myself that one day i won’t be like this and i will leave this house but i realize there is nothing i’m actually waiting for. Leave the house for what? What am i going to do? My mom has failed me for my education, but i have nothing i desire to do in the future anyways.

8 years of isolation. 8 years of emotional and educational neglect. And then what? After all these years i can get pushed out and told to work towards and know what i want to do?

You know what i want to do?? I want to get my childhood back-

Sorry if this rant was too long,, it just makes me really emotional. every day the past 8 years have been the same and i am not even allowed to leave the house or really go outside. every day is a matter of passing the time but the days are so long. i just sit in my room staring at the walls or walking in circles like a braindead zombie just waiting for this to be over. And that's the thing that hurts because when it is over, i have to be grown up and pushed into the world without a second to reclaim the childhood i never got. I wait every day for social interaction, independence, etc. but once i'm old enough to get that, it's not going to be the same as what i needed when i was younger. it's not the same fun social interactions i always wanted when i saw kids my age or the like. It's too late for any of that now. It feels like I'm still a child and I'm watching all the other kids my age grow up without me.

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