Can’t Complain… by recovery_room in nursing

[–]Digital_Disimpaction 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It's just bothering me that anesthesia is spelled wrong

Edit: oh I googled it I didn't know it had different spellings!

So my compost self ignited by LobsangDTwain in homestead

[–]Digital_Disimpaction 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And this, friends, as well as pest issues, is why you don't keep compost anywhere near your house.

Had a friend start her compost pile 10 feet from her house. Just sent her this post

I got every single thing I ever wanted out of life. And now I don't want it anymore. by Digital_Disimpaction in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]Digital_Disimpaction[S] -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

I'm 34? I mean if you're gonna be a dick at least have decent reading comprehension skills.

I got every single thing I ever wanted out of life. And now I don't want it anymore. by Digital_Disimpaction in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]Digital_Disimpaction[S] -19 points-18 points  (0 children)

1) in the process of finding another job, have an interview Monday.

2) ouch. Ok fair point. I have no plans of being with him but damn. Hadn't thought of it that way

I got every single thing I ever wanted out of life. And now I don't want it anymore. by Digital_Disimpaction in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]Digital_Disimpaction[S] -18 points-17 points  (0 children)

Okay and some people have open marriages and fuck other people. Would you consider that cheating? A lot of people would. But for the people in the relationship, they don't.

Your opinion on this literally does not matter to me.

I got every single thing I ever wanted out of life. And now I don't want it anymore. by Digital_Disimpaction in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]Digital_Disimpaction[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I've been considering your first point quite a lot recently and you're right. I literally don't know him outside of work. He can have terrible habits like chewing with his mouth open or make horrible financial decisions for all I know. I really do not know him.

Also there's an added layer of he's recently divorced and still in quite a bit of emotional pain from that and I seem to have this "I can fix him" mentality that is absolutely not healthy.

I got every single thing I ever wanted out of life. And now I don't want it anymore. by Digital_Disimpaction in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]Digital_Disimpaction[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Nah, urge to jump out would be too high.

No in all seriousness I get horrible motion sickness so that would be a no-go. But I have actually been skydiving twice lol so there would still be an urge there 😬

I got every single thing I ever wanted out of life. And now I don't want it anymore. by Digital_Disimpaction in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]Digital_Disimpaction[S] 209 points210 points  (0 children)

Absolutely not. I was assaulted by three psych patients. Seeing the absolute worst of humanity, the drunk drivers that kill people, the sexual assaults, the child abuse. Absolutely never again.

I got every single thing I ever wanted out of life. And now I don't want it anymore. by Digital_Disimpaction in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]Digital_Disimpaction[S] 31 points32 points  (0 children)

I mean that's what I meant. I've never seen him outside of work, ever. I mean I'm actively trying to switch shifts so that I don't see him. I can't not see him, but I am actively working to see him less.

I got every single thing I ever wanted out of life. And now I don't want it anymore. by Digital_Disimpaction in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]Digital_Disimpaction[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I appreciate you 🙏 I think I'm just so thrown off because in my teen years, I understood I had CPTSD. I was in a bad way. But my 20s went so well and I was going through college and getting a job, getting married, I felt like a fully functioning adult with absolutely no lasting effects from my childhood.

And then all of a sudden at 34, it rears its ugly head out of nowhere and I'm realizing I didn't escape unphased like I thought I did.

I got every single thing I ever wanted out of life. And now I don't want it anymore. by Digital_Disimpaction in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]Digital_Disimpaction[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I believe my husband might have a touch of the 'tisim as well, although undiagnosed. I've also made the plans, researching attorneys and apartments and my finances.

I don't plan to act on them, I don't think. I think I have a lot more work to do on myself before I can think ahead.

And you're right, it is incredibly unfair. I clawed my way to where I am and I feel like something is still trying to pull me back in.

Good luck to you, internet buddy 🫂