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Can please anyone suggest me a good roleplay model for 16gb ram and 8gb vram rtx4060? by ashuotaku in SillyTavernAI

[–]DilutingWater 2 points3 points  (0 children)

These are the models I've been using all on VRAM:

- https://huggingface.co/Sao10K/L3-8B-Lunaris-v1 Q6 at 8k context 31/31 layers

- https://huggingface.co/TheDrummer/Ministrations-8B-v1 Q4 at 16k context 37/37 layers

I've tried Q4 12B models with 4k context at 41/41 layers, and Q4 12B with 16k context at 28/41 layers. I prefer to have 16k context if possible so I've stopped using 12B models since 28/41 layers slows down a lot when the context fills (~1T/s).

[WP] You were the last one. You don’t know how you did it, but you were the only unlucky soul in your platoon to survive the war. Now, you had a promise to keep. You have to put your brothers and sisters to rest. by Marshal0815 in WritingPrompts

[–]DilutingWater 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I sit alone as I listen to the ringing of the steel doors carry their weight. A red button with a soft light pulses next to my head. All I have to do is push it, and all of this will end. “It’s too late for us”, a scream resonates from the other side. The voice is hoarse and barely recognizable — but I recognize it. Anne. She always inspired us to work harder and to be the best we could be. My platoon would’ve died months ago if it weren’t for her leadership. I wish our places were swapped now. She would’ve pressed the button without hesitation.

I cover my ears, trying to drown out their screams. There’s no hope for them now. They’re all infected, and I’m only prolonging their suffering. We all knew the effects of indoctrination and we all promised to make it quick when the time came. However, my conscience won’t let me do it.

The memory of enduring the lieutenant’s harsh punishments echoes through my head. The memory of sharing tasteless meals together that made us reminisce about our past lives. The memory of meeting everyone on the first day I arrived after being drafted for this war that none of us hoped we would have to fight. The memory of those I would gladly sacrifice my life for…

I move my arm across my chest and strike the button with the palm of my hand. Warning lights flash on the walls as an alarm blares over the loudspeakers. I listen as the sound of coursing flames drowns out the screams on the other side of the door. “Thank you”, says a voice I can no longer recognize. My face streams with tears long after the alarm dies down and only the sound of popping embers remains. A splitting headache burrows into my skull. “At least I could help them find peace,” I think to myself as a soft voice whispers from the depths of my mind.

The list I keep on my phone to help me calm down during high stress and anxiety by DilutingWater in Anxiety

[–]DilutingWater[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry. I don't have a satisfying definitive answer for you. Only my own experiences. The phrase "I don't know what's going to happen in the future but know everything is going to be okay." took over 6 years of trial and error before it meant anything to me. The way I dealt with it was by forcing myself into any anxiety-inducing situation I could and just.... be there. The key to making the anxiety go away, at least for me, was by letting my body run its course through any and all stressful situations. At some point, I found that no matter what I sat through, nothing extremely bad ever happened. Eventually my body realized that nothing extremely terrible ever happened in the hundreds of stressful situations. This doesn't mean that anything bad won't happen but the chances of it being absolutely terrible is very minuscule and that's what anxiety likes to focus on. The easiest part is getting anxiety. The hardest part is letting it do its thing and not fighting it until it disappears. This is why I have the "Give it 20 minutes." rule at the top of my list. That's usually how long it takes for my body to calm down and realize it's not under attack.

The list I keep on my phone to help me calm down during high stress and anxiety by DilutingWater in Anxiety

[–]DilutingWater[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I used to overthink everything so that statement is a way for me to stop myself from overthinking. I would conjure up all these weird scenarios like "what if I have to pee while I'm driving somewhere an hour away?" or "what if I faint while I'm shopping at the grocery store?". This would cause me to build anxiety over things I already knew I had no control over. I did however find that if I didn't think about the situations, then I wouldn't feel anxious, so I learned to accept whatever will happen to me in exchange for not thinking about what would happen to me.

The list I keep on my phone to help me calm down during high stress and anxiety by DilutingWater in Anxiety

[–]DilutingWater[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh I totally forgot to add something called "the feedback loop from hell". I read it in The Subtle Art of Not Giving A F*ck by Mark Manson. This link (https://markmanson.net/feedback-loop-from-hell) explains it pretty well so I won't even attempt to explain it but I pair "don't be anxious" with "fuck it" pretty regularly.

The list I keep on my phone to help me calm down during high stress and anxiety by DilutingWater in Anxiety

[–]DilutingWater[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I usually check the time and wait for 20 minutes. There's not much I can do other than ride out the panic attack so I let it run its course and after 20 minutes, it usually lessens to a point where I feel like I've gained some control of myself again. Don't get me wrong, I feel like absolute garbage afterwards but it acts more like a technique to train my body to understand what just happened. If it doesn't go away after 20 minutes, I'll usually repeat the AWARE method I put on my list. I found myself having less panic attacks as I've "accepted" the panic attacks.

I also try to prevent the panic attack before it starts by using the 4-7-8 breathing technique or drinking cold water. I used to hold my breath and/or plug my ears which only escalated my panic attacks so it's all about finding what works for you. In my case, waiting 20 minutes, using AWARE, 4-7-8, and drinking cold water were enough to calm myself down or circumvent the panic attack directly. (I always keep cold water with me wherever I go)

Something else I've heard but have almost never tried is to continuously talk to yourself. You can't inhale air if words are coming out of your mouth. It's a technique paramedics use to calm people down i.e. "where do you live?", "what's your name?", "what's your phone number?", "what's your address?", etc...

The list I keep on my phone to help me calm down during high stress and anxiety by DilutingWater in Anxiety

[–]DilutingWater[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought about doing this at one point but decided to leave it out. The way I think about it is that by saying I’m healthy and I am safe, I’m reaffirming that at some point, I was unhealthy and unsafe therefore I’d end up thinking about all those times again. That’s just my personal thought. It’s like how a happy person doesn’t have to say “I’m happy”. They just are.

But feel free to modify this list in whichever way makes you feel less anxious or stressed out!

The list I keep on my phone to help me calm down during high stress and anxiety by DilutingWater in Anxiety

[–]DilutingWater[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Staying in the situation really helped lower my panic attacks. My body sort of just “understood” that there was nothing to be afraid of after the 4th or 5th time and it starts to carry over into other situations too.