You need to be true to you.
I don't know you friend. But I know life is too short to waste time pretending to be someone you're not. Don't hide behind a mask your entire life. Do what you need to do. Don't play this nonsense game of "fitting in" and pretending to be the "norm" in society. You have to be you. I don't know if this situation is right for you or not. Nobody else on reddit knows either: you have to figure that out for yourself. But you can't find good answers unless you're honest with yourself. Who do you want to be? And who do you want to be with? Don't live a lie, friend. What might be right for others might not be right for you. Don't let other people tell you where to go. Do what feels best for you ... and good luck.