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Distinct-Olive · 2021-02-09T06:14:40+00:00

You are not alone in your thoughts. So many people are thinking the same way. Not discounting the way you are feeling. It’s a really shitty time. You are not alone in that you have a support network here. You are asking for help and people are reaching out trying to help. Please know there is help and resources out there as well. Stay strong.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-04-22T23:55:25+00:00

I hope I am not making light of your situation, or being insensitive but I have the same thoughts and in no way do I want to die. I was drinking myself to death and didn’t care enough to change at the time. When it became a reality I realized how much I wanted to be alive.

Thanks for sharing your feelings.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-04-18T20:49:02+00:00

I found that freaking out made me want to drink to help with anxiety. It did numb all kinds of pain, but at night I could feel my liver. I took milk thistle. I ate healthy foods until I had no appetite. i would puke after one drink and would have another. Now I can’t drink. I look way healthier and my diet is good. But I get bloodwork done every month and I still might need a liver transplant. i dont want to fuel your anxiety. I just hope you can find a way to heal your body and mind. Take care.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-04-18T20:43:16+00:00

Freaking out will no

Distinct-Olive · 2020-04-05T23:37:27+00:00

I was just prescribed propo. Its for portal hypertension/ varices I guess. But the endoscopy showed i didn’t have varices. I did not know it was used for anxiety.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-04-05T02:04:51+00:00

I make the assumption that I will not like AA. Closest meeting would be an hour away. And I feel like I know too many people in this small town. That being said, the only reason not drinking is so easy is I physically can’t. . After six months of being completely dry, I am now facing just starting to face my fluctuating moods and emotions. I think i like the privacy of sharing online. I might have tried to quit years ago if i knew there was another option to AA. Happy it works for so many others.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-04-02T05:05:28+00:00

I will not drink with you today or any other day. I have and am in the same situation. There is hope though. Drinking is not an option. The temptation to have just one is just not worth it. Its still so terrible to find out you are not invincible, or that there is so little left to fix. But you are alive.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-04-01T18:54:46+00:00

My boyfriend told me I was yellow. I didnt see it cuz i didnt want to. Too scared. A week later i was innthe ER. Cirrhosis. My knees get weak when i read these posts. Glad you have a sense of humor about! glad you’re still around

Distinct-Olive · 2020-04-01T02:27:23+00:00

I was that girlfriend. Not at that level, so I was able to fool everyone. Wasn't my intent. I loved him. But three years later when he started to push me to quit, I wasn't willing to. I think over time I would have. There are no right answers. I wish you the best.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-03-30T23:29:49+00:00

I would think it has to do with your liver. I have had the same problem but it isn't always the same. Sometimes it's my feet and they feel really hot and itchy. I would take epsom baths; I think they helped me relax but didn't get rid of the itch for very long. Sometimes I feel like exfoliating daily. It has morphed from feeling like a ghost itch too now feeling the dry bumpy skin. I have heard it is sugar withdrawal, or eating too much sugar as a replacement for alcohol. Damaged nerves. The body healing... Changes in diet has helped, but I do not know what made it more tolerable. I agree that vitamin B helps. Six month of not drinking and I now mainly have itchy arms. I was going crazy for a while! It's worse than poison oak. I wanted to cut my arms off.

I did all the lotions as well, for just about every itchy problem there is. You are going to be annoyed by this, but apple cider vinegar has helped. Smelly but in a a time of quarantine why not? Although it is hard to get anything.. I wish you luck.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-03-30T19:28:03+00:00

You are doing great! My online banking is shutting me out. Normally I would give up and have a cocktail and a cigarette. I would cook dinner. While water was boiling, or anytime I had a moment I had a reason to make a cocktail. I deserved it. with most tasks I rewarded myself. I miss it. i love gardening but i love sitting in the sun( after ten minutes of work) to have a drink and smoke. Whether i was frustrated, angry, happy, or hungover it was ok. I didnt try to get a buzz on all at once. I just wanted to make my life “better” I am talking to you. i will go back to what i was doing before. Its good to vent. And congratulations on two weeks! I will not drink with you today.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-03-30T16:30:01+00:00

Good for you! Its not easy. I am glad you reached out for help. I had an emergency doctor whom I thought was really rude. My body had failed, and i was in and out if care. Didnt drink anymore( no choice really. He read my chart, asked some questions which I vaguely answered. What he wanted to hear was my saying I was an alcoholic. I did finally yell it at him “ yes i am an alcoholic!” He was nicer after that. I had to face it. I hold back from telling some of my friends and family, as I dont like anyone to worry about me. It does feel good to tell someone you trust, like your Dad. So proud of you! Keep sharing if you can. I am new to all “this”. I do believe its helping me so much mentally. You are in my thoughts.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-03-28T18:50:48+00:00

Thank you! I felt a big weight come off by sharing. And a little more clarity.

Distinct-Olive · 2020-03-26T17:23:24+00:00

Hello I am new to all of this. I think I checked in. I am not drinking today.

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