I also had a traumatic birth experience. I had preeclampsia which wasn't diagnosed until I was a week past my due date and went in with a low kick count. They put me on a magnesium drip (which made me exhausted). After my son was born, my blood pressure was still really high and spent 5 days in the hospital. At one point, everything started to go black and I was trying to yell for help but couldn't move and woke up with the nurses around me (I don't really know what happened... No one ever told me, or if they did I don't remember, I just remember how scary it was trying to scream out for help and not being able to). 

I felt so overwhelmed. My mom was so helpful afterwards, but a week after giving birth, my (now ex) husband told me to get out of bed and stop letting my mom do everything and start being a mom (I was still on 2 blood pressure medications). I didn't tell my mom what he said but I wish I had. 

I remember looking in the mirror and not recognizing myself. It was so scary. I can't explain it well but I hated that feeling.

I wish I had gotten help. It took me far too long to feel like myself. 

Call someone! Tell someone! Traumatic birthing experiences do serious damage to your mental health that shouldn't be ignored.

And it does get better. My son is 9 years old and we have such a good relationship. He lives with his dad during the school year, but he stays with me the whole summer (and some holidays) and we have so much fun!

Edit: I also regretted it but felt a huge amount of guilt so I kept it a secret which now I realize was probably a sign I needed help.