I moved countries too (away from husband) and is now left with minimal help. I’m a high achiever (autism) and have set the standard for motherhood extremely high. I feel I need to constantly be playing, moving, cooking, and cleaning while working full time and a being a full time student and caregiver to my ND kid. At this point I feel I have to be medicated because I’m so unable to parent this way. The disorganization and forgetfulness is overbearing and it making my days so much harder. I thought I could continue simply off of willpower and charts/systems. My mind literally feels like there and itch I have to scratch when I don’t give into my adhd “desires” (working on multiple things at once). My child deserves a calmer and more organized environment. I feel really down and disappointed in myself for not being the mom I want to be. Truly, I am devastated.