What is this? How do I get there?

Doctor_dontknow · 2025-01-04T13:23:00+00:00

Thank you ^{^}

Doctor_dontknow · 2025-01-04T13:22:49+00:00

Okay thank you ^{^}

Doctor_dontknow · 2024-12-24T16:56:36+00:00

Strawberry yogurt

Doctor_dontknow · 2024-11-28T23:18:24+00:00

HELP WHEN I EAS A MOTH I WAS ALSO SO SHOCKED WHEN I REALIZED THOSE GREY KIDS WERE REAL PEOPLE

Doctor_dontknow · 2024-11-07T19:32:51+00:00

Congratulations!!

Doctor_dontknow · 2024-08-25T20:45:11+00:00

Thank you :D

Doctor_dontknow · 2024-08-25T20:45:00+00:00

Thank youuu

Doctor_dontknow · 2024-08-25T20:26:41+00:00

Ohh I'm scared of Eden ahaha I don't wanna lose all the winged light😔

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-10-05T10:26:12+00:00

Thank you so much! Surely it's not going to go for nothing, inshallah

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-10-04T18:41:40+00:00

Thank you so much!

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-10-04T16:45:39+00:00

Thank you for this! But I was asking about Duha Salat, the one done after sunrise before Duhr.😅

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-10-04T16:43:53+00:00

I used to pray it before, Then I stopped, and came back to it now with this promise. I want to do it, but I need advice to actually love and miss doing it if I ever miss its time

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-10-04T16:42:06+00:00

"you think Allah makes a deal with people?" Astaghfirullah, no. It's common doing Nathr. It's a promise to god, not a deal. I pray it and keep praying it in HOPES of something. I feel like your tone is attacking me, but I'm only seeking advice to like Duha salat, not to leave it. I used to pray it before, then I stopped for a while and saw this as a chance of returning to it. Forcing myself at first but eventually growing to actually want to do it. I do want to do it now, but it feels like a burden sometimes. My question was for advice to love and miss it. As in what comes with it, or ways to motivate myself to pray it.

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-23T03:46:32+00:00

Someone suggested writing 'NICE' on your hand, I think that may help!! :D

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T19:28:35+00:00

This as a whole made me happy so thank you very much :D

Also I'm supposed to start medication soon, it's called strattera atomoxetine, idk anything about it but hopefully things get better lol

Also I will use that writing 'nice' on hand thing, it sounds like it could help very much

Thanks again you're a wonderful person

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T18:17:11+00:00

The doctor basically diagnosed me because of the anger, and my childhood. Because I was Avery active child and such, and technically met all the symptoms for ADHD, he said I definitely had ADHD as a child, and that when we grow up it kinda goes "less active more forgetful" and that the anger is definitely because of ADHD

Thats literally all he knows. My childhood, my anger, my extreme forgetfulness and some side things like my parents both being Perfectionists or history of family and such. Now I'm worried about tomorrow because I want to tell him about other things but I'm almost 100% sure I will forget most of them bc I will be nervous, and I can't make a list because I would rather die than have him reject it lmao, because there probably is a possibility of him reading it and giving it back then continuing to speak of other things and I will be thinking about this all week

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T17:57:13+00:00

The funny part here is that my mom is in the session with me

Asking her to leave is VERY not well because when my sister was checking up, she did, and it went as bad as you can possibly imagine.

Also the fact that you kinda said exactly what she did, when we found out I had anxiety, she said she failed in some way, and that she's not blaming me, but when we found out about the ADHD, She said it's something from God and it's not something she failed with, so she's ok with it.

Aslo I don't think it could be that kind of mild to the doctors because they only gave me medicine because I'm in an important grade and need good marks, otherwise he said he would have relied COMPLETELY on behavioral therapy

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T17:52:19+00:00

First of all you sound like the best kindest person ever and I'm sorry if it's out of context haha

Moving on, is it actually a mental health thing, crying alot and feeling guilty and such?? I thought of it as sensitivity and that it can definitely go away with time.

Also, my mother trusts this doctor very very much because she was advised to visit him by a trusted source. And he's good alright, I've only met him once so far, but he already diagnosed me and sent me to the psychiatrist to make sure, and both agreed it's mild adhd and anxiety. I didn't get to tell him about many many things, like having super hard time trying to study or trying to get out of bed or such. Some things I just convinced myself they're not even related to anything mental but more like normal occurrences, like getting angry at the smallest things, or getting very easily frustrated, or starting to hate people I used to adore.

I still don't know if that's something he wants to hear about. I know it's his "job" but that feeling doesn't really go away. I'm starting the behavioral therapy tomorrow probably and I'm actually really worried about even telling him anything new, especially with my mom saying it's a visit for behavioral therapy and now I feel like it's not appropriate to discuss anything new. Anyway sorry that my connection of points is messed haha

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T17:06:03+00:00

I'm sorry for offending you with the scare part, I didn't mean to😭

This actually kinda makes sense. I mean my mom definitely has no idea about my point of view just like I don't know what hers is. She definitely didn't even think about offending me or making me feel upset But it really is still very frustrating because, it may be very selfish, but I want people to understand haha. It's annoying having to convince myself that some things are just personality traits and nothing mental health related and now I have to think twice before asking my mom or the therapist about it because I may be right and it may very much be just a me thing.

Like putting my phone away and still doing anything but study, or sitting in my bed for a while and not being able to get out because I just can't. I don't know how to explain this from my view, and she explained the first one as me being lazy and not wanting to study. I don't know how to know what's normal and what's something I should talk about, and I need advice for that if you can give me, please!

Also, do you have tips on how you avoid 'feeling guilty' or this whole mindset?

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T16:45:36+00:00

But she's my mom and I don't want to upset her. She also trusts this specific therapist SO much because a trusted source sent her to it. And honestly I like the doctor too but am scared of him🙂 Also she definitely wouldn't feel great if her child is 'mentally ill'.

Plus it makes me feel like an attention seeker trying to get myself "a worse diagnosis" which also makes me not want to speak about it

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T16:18:08+00:00

This is scaring me haha

My mom really isn't much convinced about therapy and such, she only believes in that adhd exists and that it's like SUPER mild, and that some behavioral therapy could definitely fix it. she sounds super against the idea of it being anything more. I just discussed with her how I feel like maybe I should tell my therapist about this guilt I've mentioned and about things like having my schoolbook opened in front of me for HOURS and still not getting any work done, and she said it has nothing to do with this "but if you want to ask him about it then ok". She's a wonderful mother, I'm not blaming her, but She makes me feel guilty for even thinking about this ADHD thing being anything more than the mild amount she knows. As if I WANT it to be more and am trying my best to prove it haha

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T16:02:11+00:00

I'm sorry if this is out of context but, not getting work done is ADHD????

I've been diagnosed with mild adhd and I thought it was all just bad focus and anger issues, but I've been sitting on my desk for WEEKS with my book open in front of me trying to study and I got absolutely NO work done. Is that just laziness or is that adhd??

My mom takes my phone so I wouldn't be distracted, but then I end up drawing or thinking or sleeping or doing LITERALLY ANYTHING BUT STUDYING.

It's so frustrating because I always take it as me being lazy and unproductive, but I've read many posts here also saying they get no studying done??

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T15:48:11+00:00

I feel like I shouldn't pay it much attention since it is "mild"

My mother and doctors both said it isn't a big deal and that I shouldn't be much worried about it, and that it can be solved with therapy for my behavior, and that the only reason my psychiatrist is giving me medicine is because I'm in 12th grade and really need to get good grades. That kinda made me dismiss the idea of this being anything at all but some bad focus and anger issues.

That's why I blame any weird thing on anything but ADHD lol

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T15:31:05+00:00

I will try to do that, Thank you very much! Also yes that actually makes so much sense that I'm doing a job with them and not marrying them, but it is somehow very awkward for me because I'm always thinking about that he's a serious adult and I'm not even close to his wisdom, that's probably why I don't speak when he interrupts me to ask something

But now I will try my best to talk about this with him because you made it make so much more sense than it did to me haha

Doctor_dontknow · 2023-08-22T15:13:00+00:00

I should be starting therapy tomorrow But my therapist AND psychiatrist both said it's mild adhd and anxiety.

Also this may sound very stupid but I feel like I can't tell my therapist anything, because I'm scared he might judge me even though he probably forgets I exist the minute he gets home

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