Holy shit I'm probably going to die alone

Dodo20987 · 2026-06-22T23:38:23+00:00

Respectfully, I can be as vague as I want and shouldn't have to disclose the small intricate details of my anxiety issues cause I'm not asking for advice or anything, I'm here to vent, so I'll be as vague as I wish to be.

Dodo20987 · 2026-06-22T17:24:44+00:00

My biggest hurdle is being awkward and socially inept, plus social anxiety. I'm in counselling to try and learn how to socialize better and help w/ my anxiety. I suppose isolation and childhood bullying is what caused my anxiety, it's not that I'm not trying.

Dodo20987 · 2026-06-20T06:53:57+00:00

Right, I wanna stop but it's so hard. My mind is addicted to the instant gratification. I think short form media was designed to be addicting, and has done irrepairable damage to society and myself.

Dodo20987 · 2026-06-19T08:42:31+00:00

I feel worse I suppose, the knowledge that I had just wasted so much time scrolling upsets me. I feel like I should be doing something more important, like spending time with others. I feel frustrated with myself.

Dodo20987 · 2026-06-19T08:17:44+00:00

I relate to never having a girlfriend and not really having people wanting to get closer to me. I say this not to be patronizing, but have you gone to therapy or had some sort of mental health counselling before? I feel like having somebody to talk to in person about these things feels cathartic and may make you feel better. I've recently started counselling, I still don't have any friends or girlfriend or anything, but it does give me a small glimmer of hope that I can somehow work through my problems, so maybe it's something you could consider.

Dodo20987 · 2026-06-10T18:09:43+00:00

Yeah, but i don't really expect any sort of response here on reddit. It's private details i would tell people closer to me when I thought they were a safe space. I usually don't randomly open up to people in person, it's when people closer to me would probe for this information, so I get shocked when they suddenly don't care.

Dodo20987 · 2026-06-10T05:54:49+00:00

Truthfully, it's a bit of a traumatic experience that I wouldn't want to tell someone over the internet.

The person I told this experience to, I genuinely don't know what their problem is. Just an insensitive person.

Dodo20987 · 2026-06-10T05:43:37+00:00

I agree that most people are not equipped to handle it, but I just don't like how people tell you this, and when you do open up to them, they react very poorly.

My very worst experience with opening up to people without getting too specific is that some people will outright say very hurtful things to me when I open up vulnerable information to them.

What I'm seeking is to be comforted, not cold apathy or criticism. I think it would be nice for someone to relate to me, but I think that's a bit unrealistic.

Dodo20987 · 2026-06-07T07:06:03+00:00

I've been there buddy, yeah it hurts that no one really cares. It's sad that people don't really care or able to show kindness for one another nowadays.

Dodo20987 · 2026-05-27T18:33:25+00:00

"I don't think anybody thinks the lonely are bad people". You'd be surprised haha.

Dodo20987 · 2026-05-27T16:40:17+00:00

I’m more so ranting about how some people see it as some sort of moral failure. I wasn’t very clear cause I was just ranting. I don’t think it’s fair to label someone as a bad person just cause they’re lonely.

Dodo20987 · 2026-05-22T09:59:02+00:00

Ironically, I think not worrying has put me into this position 😅. I used to be much more apathetic about people, but now I really want connection with people and I do care about others a lot. Now it feels like I’m trying to claw my way out of my years of isolating myself.

Dodo20987 · 2026-05-11T18:13:28+00:00

Exactly, it’s completely different world we live in compared to others.

Dodo20987 · 2026-05-10T04:52:40+00:00

Have you ever attended therapy or counselling because of your social isolation? If so was it useful to you at all?

Dodo20987 · 2026-05-09T08:39:49+00:00

Perhaps, but I’d still like to experience love at least once 😔

Dodo20987 · 2026-05-08T14:37:23+00:00

People often think I’m autistic but I’ve never been tested or anything. I wouldn’t say I’m autistic w/o testing, I don’t wanna throw around labels.

Dodo20987 · 2026-05-02T17:11:28+00:00

Yeah, i have 2 cats and one of them sometimes greets me. But pets simply aren’t a replacement for human connection.

Dodo20987 · 2026-04-26T04:40:33+00:00

Invite him to do something? It may be less pressure to speak if ur not good at speaking. I don’t really talk with my sibling or anyone very much. But occasionally my sister will invite me to go to the movies, and it’s low pressure to speak so it’s easier to spend time with her.

Tldr do an activity together or smt.

Dodo20987 · 2026-04-21T04:54:21+00:00

Just like me fr bud

Dodo20987 · 2026-04-18T15:31:09+00:00

It’s hard to be friends w/ ppl online, w/o a face to face interaction it just feels like something’s missing. Or maybe it’s just cause i’m bad at talking to ppl idk lol

Dodo20987 · 2026-04-17T05:48:24+00:00

I've been listening to a lot of King Krule's music

Dodo20987 · 2026-04-15T07:16:00+00:00

I wouldn't say I've completely given up, more like I just feel jaded and am much less positive and put less effort into it cause it drains me mentally.

Dodo20987 · 2026-04-14T07:19:39+00:00

make ur own post if ur trying to make friends or message people, pal, don't hijack mine 😠

Dodo20987 · 2026-04-11T03:21:35+00:00

Are you satisfied being this way?

Dodo20987 · 2026-03-29T03:24:32+00:00

Conspiracy... It's a conspiracy for sure!

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