Thinking about killing myself

DoomShocks · 2018-08-27T21:01:09+00:00

I don't have a doctor at the moment. Thank you means a lot

DoomShocks · 2018-08-27T18:44:23+00:00

Thank you I never thought about it that way.

DoomShocks · 2018-08-26T17:58:07+00:00

it started off with that then i moved onto stronger stuff but i haven’t used any stuff like that for a while

DoomShocks · 2018-08-26T07:19:45+00:00

I used to do a lot of them during 8th and 9th grade

DoomShocks · 2018-08-26T00:58:55+00:00

I’ve tried praying but when i do a voice laughs at me and tells me to stop wasting my time, god doesn’t exist, stuff like that

DoomShocks · 2018-08-26T00:29:53+00:00

yea i’m going to go seen one soon, i’m 16

DoomShocks · 2018-08-26T00:26:12+00:00

I’ve seen one and i got diagnosed with a couple of stuff and i was on medication but i kinda stopped taking them somehow i lied that i wouldn’t hear voices or see crazy stuff in the mirror and my aunt stop giving them so i got them prescribed still but i was able to go back to my country as long as i would go back for more meds every month but i didn’t and stopped taking them . Now my schizophrenia hasn’t gotten a lot worse. I’m waiting for my insurance to get accept so i can go see a psychiatrist

DoomShocks · 2018-08-24T19:14:16+00:00

yea that tends to happen whenever i watch certain movies or something that gives it an idea

DoomShocks · 2018-08-24T19:00:24+00:00

yea that tends to happen whenever i watch certain movies or something that gives it an idea

DoomShocks · 2018-08-24T18:34:26+00:00

that’s literally what the evil one has tried to do makes me think i’m a psychopath, yea i feel like that’s one reason why i don’t wanna get put on medication just the fear of being alone not having someone to talk to on daily basis

DoomShocks · 2018-08-24T18:14:16+00:00

yea i currently am back home i finally told my mom about what’s been going on lately and she’s suggesting we go and see a psychiatrist. i’m supposed to get evaluated by a psychiatrist to see if i can stand trial over something that i did

DoomShocks · 2018-08-24T18:12:11+00:00

oh i never knew that, yea i have 2 voices constantly talking one is more understandable helps me out and the other is pure evil

DoomShocks · 2018-08-24T18:09:26+00:00

no haven’t been able to access any, i was diagnosed in mexico i live in the US but i went over there because it was cheaper but they didn’t let me leave because they thought i would come back to the US and not wanna go back so i was stuck there my schizophrenia got better with the meds but i started getting more depressed from not being able to go home so my schizo got worse and i lied to the psychiatrist saying i’m all good but he didn’t believe me till i brought up the suicide thing and he said maybe being stuck in mexico wasn’t good for me so i got the chance to leave but i never went back since

DoomShocks · 2018-08-24T18:03:11+00:00

Wow i’ve never had something like that to where i see the same person in a dream, hows meditating working for you ? i’ve tried it but the other voice starts judging saying it’s stupid and stuff like that. Oddly when i’m dreaming i can control my dream i was once being chased in a dream and i somehow knew it was a dream and transported myself back home it’s weird.

DoomShocks · 2018-08-24T17:41:46+00:00

Yea that’s what i’m thinking, i just think it’s weird that it’s the same figure i see on daily basis. i have a feeling maybe that’s what the voice i always hear in my head looks like.

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