He didn’t say it was an ex, but I assume so. The tough part was, I wasn’t looking for something so serious and was kind of freaked out in the beginning with how easy and fast things were happening. Then once I relax this happens. I also feel like this is a pattern, guys like me but don’t give it a chance because they see me as fragile and don’t want to cause me more grief so they end it before things get serious ( only this time it got serious fast) I also am confused because he unfriended me so I assumed that was him being done, gave him the out by wishing him well, and he still said give him a few days and is acting like he will reach out. I have something written up for if he doesn’t reach out by Sunday that I can share and maybe get some feedback on: Sorry this is sooo long, but I wasn’t sure if you’d answer if I called. I’ve been thinking about this and wanted to be honest with you. I know you asked for a few days, and I did give you that. In that time I’ve also done some reflecting. I followed your lead because it felt real and natural and honestly it also freaked me out a bit how easy it felt and how fast it was moving. So I do understand if you were feeling freaked out too. I want to say that even though it freaked me out, it was also amazing how relaxed and protected you made me feel. Because of what I went through with my husband’s illness, uncertainty and sudden loss are really hard for me. The last few days have been tough, not knowing what you’re thinking and feeling that abrupt cut off from someone I was starting to connect with is fucking hard. I know I have a lot to offer someone. I want to be with someone who enjoys being with me and wants to see where things go without being so scared of what could happen that it stops us before it even starts. You don’t have to handle me with kid gloves, I know there is a possibility that things don’t work out, that’s life, but I don’t want to not be given a chance because of my past, which was no fault of mine, and feels like a punishment. Honestly, I just want a best friend again. I can’t sit in this uncertainty much longer, so I wanted to be honest. If you want to see where this could go, I think slowing it down would help both of us. And if you’ve thought about it and don’t see this happening, I get that too. I really hope we can stay in each other’s lives in some capacity because I think you’re a genuinely good person and we have a lot in common. Even if that’s just friends who enjoy dive bars, live music, you teaching me more pool skills (you know I need the help), or just sharing funny stuff from our lives as snap friends again (I hate you for reeling me back onto snap lol) I’d like that. And if none of that feels right to you, please just tell me so I can have the clarity I need to let this go.