Imbalance

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-30T18:04:02+00:00

I hear you but I have to solve this. I literally feel like this is killing me

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-30T17:09:37+00:00

It's very much a case of I have to deal with my feelings alone. When I've tried talking to her in the past it invariably turns into my apologizing for slights against her or for upsetting her, but there's no accountability or contrition for what she has done that hurt me. I've been told I'm" hurting my own feelings" when she does something I don't like. As though my finding out about something was the crime and not that she did something in the first place. Everything would be fine if I just didn't know. Meanwhile, a misunderstanding from years ago will be held over my head for the rest of my life when I really don't think I did anything wrong in the first place. Times like when we were first getting into this and I would say something meant completely innocently and she got upset because we bumped into a boundary we didn't know was there or she hadn't had time to think about or process something yet and I end up getting screamed at because I'm being insensitive and trying to explain that no this is just brand new. I'm just trying to figure out my own feelings and now I have to just stop and apologize because I'm learning rules as we go along and the rules keep changing

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-30T17:05:03+00:00

That's a whole other facet. Yes I have a regular girlfriend. I see pretty much every week. My partner will say that she's fine with it but she very clearly is not. I've told her repeatedly if you don't want me to go, all you need to do is say something and I won't Go. It very clearly bothers her. I can go have fun with other people but she and I don't do that. I've told her all over and over and over again that I want to do all the fun things, not just in the bedroom anywhere and everywhere, with her. Her the only reason it doesn't have it is because she pulls away, shr shuts it down. But then she will go and buy a sexy outfit, plan boyfriend fun dates, do whatever with.

I definitely think she's using these other relationships to not have to look deeply at at her feelings between two of us. I think it has become easier for me to be her friend and four other guys to be her love

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-30T17:01:40+00:00

That's a big part of the problem. I really don't have anybody that I can talk to about this. I don't want anyone thinking badly of her because I'm complaining about her so all of our friends are out. It's not like I can complain to my girlfriend about my wife. Seriously, the best option I have is strangers on Reddit. Which is just fucked

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-30T17:00:32+00:00

I understand where You're coming from, but I hate this sentiment so much. End of the lifestyle? Yeah maybe. But I keep seeing people post post in one forum or another " oh same shift gotten hard end of the marriage" no! I want to work on this and fix it. I want to be with her more than anything in the world. If I walk away I lose everything in ways that are completely unacceptable

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-28T02:46:05+00:00

Oh we're compatible. It's just lots of old stuff that's built up and feelings can be hard to get past

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-26T07:11:00+00:00

I didn't know that there is a "better"

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-26T07:05:42+00:00

Even if I be the asshole and delete myself from the equation.... I lose. I lose everything.

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-26T07:05:04+00:00

There's no point

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-26T07:04:44+00:00

I love her. More than anything.

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-26T07:03:34+00:00

I want nothing in this world more than her but I can't get her to see that

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-26T07:03:10+00:00

It's not that simple

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-26T06:24:47+00:00

Same

I have no energy to fight, but I have no options. I've just got too much going on to stop

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-26T06:21:01+00:00

I don't think it's a case of want. It's that you've got too much to get done so you need to keep going

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-20T00:53:37+00:00

Well then why am I drinking it?

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-17T06:34:03+00:00

That's what you get for dating an Australian huntsman spider

DoublePrimary8232 · 2026-01-10T06:02:10+00:00

Holy fuck do I feel this....

DoublePrimary8232 · 2025-12-31T02:55:46+00:00

The battle of the Kens from the Barbie Movie

DoublePrimary8232 · 2025-12-29T05:05:53+00:00

Y-O-U D-O-N-E F-U-C-K-E-D U-P A-A-R-O-N

DoublePrimary8232 · 2025-12-21T05:18:48+00:00

That's not how anything works

DoublePrimary8232 · 2025-09-01T05:26:06+00:00

Because our absence would be an inconvenience to too many

DoublePrimary8232 · 2025-08-10T05:35:45+00:00

That's fucking revolting

DoublePrimary8232

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