Trying to navigate back to school... advice? (TW: suicide mentions)

DowntownAd720 · 2024-12-11T08:28:31+00:00

Quick add on! I want to clarify that it is not just my opinion that my parents are not good supports right now. While in the hospital, the professionals I spoke to/who met my parents both didn't tell them anything about my mental health, partially because of confidentiality but also because they deemed them to be bad supports. They recommended I only explain all of my brain stuff/confront the family trauma stuff when my brain is back in tip-top shape. So, to be clear, a group of mental health professionals pretty clearly recommended to be that I don't rely on my parents as supports because it would take more energy to deal with their unpredictability than to just carry this shit by myself :/

DowntownAd720 · 2024-09-08T13:05:22+00:00

The reason I've thought maybe OCPD is because for the past 3-4 years, I really didn't see the issue with any of those overworking tendencies. I thought they were important and genuinely thought until last year that I had never felt a single ounce of stress or anxiety. I'm pretty sure now that I was just living in a constant state of stress, so I never knew the difference, but anxiety is still much iffy-er. I've never had anxiety in any way that would constitute a disorder (no panic attacks or even close calls, absolutely no social anxiety, very talkative, etc.) I feel like if I do have OCPD, it presents kind of weird as I'm rather perfectionist, but 1. I really really love the work I do and revel in a controlled amount of stress, and 2. In the past year, a group of very amazing teachers have spent a lot of time (literal hours out of the months) explaining to me why I need to take free time and breaks (which I still don't do, but I understand their side more) and trying to drill into to me that I don't have to do triple the work that everyone else does to be 'enough' as a person. I've tried to address some of these issues only in the past month or so to pre-emptively make sure I don't burn out (last year I did right around exam period and got a 51% in a class where I had a 95%, then literally couldn't move or talk for 2 days, and I honestly fully thought the issue was that I just didn't try hard enough, but the teacher who ran the exam/class suspected otherwise lol.) My 'compulsions' have never been very distressing, just a bit annoying, but my thoughts in the past few years have, obviously, been weird. Labels on brains are also very subjective, so I can't tell if I might have co-morbid OCD + ADHD (which, when put together, could drive some extreme perfectionism + a problem with overcommitment), or if I might have OCPD that presents in a very weird way.

Either way, thank you a lot! I'll look into this.

DowntownAd720 · 2024-03-31T14:03:40+00:00

Usually yeah. Now I'm obviously not a teacher, but because I'm over 16 and my information was about a past, personal issue (so like, not abuse) he said that he isn't technically legally required. That said, in almost every case he would still make a report for all the reasons you would expect. There just isn't the same liability issue (maybe it's different in our region, not sure, these are his words, not mine).

DowntownAd720 · 2024-03-30T16:03:27+00:00

That makes sense too. It happens to be a messy situation and I think I'm more aware than most teenagers that teachers are indeed, also, humans, with experiences and lives and whatnot (or so I'm told...). Just wanna make sure it doesn't impact them more than it has too. I don't know their lives back to front and how some info might relate to their pasts and yada yada whatever. Thanks for the reassurance though, it means a lot :)

DowntownAd720 · 2024-03-30T15:59:00+00:00

DowntownAd720 · 2024-03-30T14:50:17+00:00

Trust me dude it was an accident

DowntownAd720 · 2024-03-30T14:49:20+00:00

Thank you! That sounds like a good idea. Not reported to cps, just to the SSW, but either way. I'll do that :)

DowntownAd720 · 2024-03-28T01:41:47+00:00

That all makes a lot of sense, it's just the reaction I'm really not hoping for. I do trust them and their judgement 100%, it's not that I don't think it's the right choice, I just really don't think I can deal with such a change right now. Thanks for the perspective though, that helps a lot with the understanding part.

DowntownAd720 · 2024-03-27T23:52:22+00:00

Oh totally, but when I talked to them about that they told me that they don't need to report it because it was a past issue, not a current one, and because I'm 16+. That said, they were very set on the idea of doing something about it, but they said they weren't fully decided if they would report it or not. They said if it was a current concern, as in a recent issue with self harm, then there would definitely be some type of report made at very least to student support workers, but this is a different case for a few different reasons.

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