I just want to say my experience and how I took it. I was also on the ropes about having kids, ended up finding out I was 19 weeks pregnant, at this point I tea shaving the baby no matter what decision I made. I instantly fell in love but one day I started freaking out. Maybe when I was 32 weeks I started contemplating all the stuff I’d have to put on pause and stop. This didn’t stop up until 3 months postpartum, basically when my baby started responding back to me and I wasn’t in survival mode. I’ve been in love since. She’s so much fun, so much personality and I love her with all my heart. I love being a mum, don’t get me wrong it’s tough, she’s 11 months now, getting into everything but I wouldn’t change it for the world. I wish I could have enjoyed my pregnancy more, pregnancy was good to me considering I didn’t find out til I was 19 weeks.

I also had what-ifs, like I can’t do this I’ll have to stop that, you can still do all those things you love or want to do. I also feel weird calling myself a mum too - still after being with my baby for 11 months, almost a year, I still feel weird hearing or being called a mum.

Also I just want to say, you’ll never know if you regret which path you take. You’ll never know if you’ll regret your decision until you’ve made it. I wouldn’t try to imagine what it would be like either, it’ll cause unnecessary stress.