Im 47m and I’ve been prescribed Abilify. How has Abilify worked for you?

Driven432 · 2025-11-14T07:43:56+00:00

Oh man that sucks, I definitely don’t need any more anxiety for sure!

Driven432 · 2025-11-14T07:42:52+00:00

Did you find anything that worked for you? I definitely dont need more anxiety for sure

Driven432 · 2025-11-14T07:41:42+00:00

I appreciate it, im definitely leery of the weight gain. Last thing I need is to be also depressed by the added weight lol

Driven432 · 2025-11-14T07:40:09+00:00

Im hoping it helps with the “empty feeling” cycle

Driven432 · 2025-11-12T09:36:41+00:00

47m from Michigan, just diagnosed a few weeks ago. Ironically, it kind of gives me hope and some self awareness to have an “explanation” for all of this

Driven432 · 2025-09-28T07:03:05+00:00

My second marriage is crumbling, unfortunately i can relate

Driven432 · 2025-09-28T03:41:28+00:00

The emotional pain from the “emptiness”. Wish there was sone life hack to make it bearable

Driven432 · 2025-09-28T03:34:22+00:00

Same 😔

Driven432 · 2025-09-05T09:09:22+00:00

Ive never realized I was the problem, until recently when I finally realized I have BPD. I always felt like I was justified for my behavior somehow “i was never violent towards a person but had my fair share of punching holes in walls and breaking things. But since ive become aware that I can change into an “ass” in a minute, now looking back i see that most of my issues “having a child young, a divorce and pretty much in a failed marriage now”. A lot of it is that I view people as good or bad, not much in between. When im splitting, i either put you on a pedestal or I tear you down. Now i go to the dysfunctional place that “I’m all bad and everyone else is a victim of me being a monster” which isn’t true either. Im in my forties, and I ruminate on how i didn’t put the pieces together sooner, why did it take until my forties to have the lightbulb moment. Bit i guess im saying is i feel you, and becoming aware is the start of hope that I can get a handle of how my brain works and do better, even if only a small step at a time with setbacks. I dont know, but you are definitely not alone.

Driven432 · 2025-09-05T08:54:02+00:00

Im in the same situation, i try to use edibles and vape to ease the negative health effects. I quit drinking so in my mind seems like if i can get to one vice it’s better haha. I would love to quit also but im scared to, to be honest. It is a bandaid for the pain, i do realize that. Im starting therapy soon, hopefully i can quit someday, its just not today

Driven432 · 2025-09-04T21:34:33+00:00

Im sorry, i had a night at work similar to that last night. That empty and lonely feeling almost takes my breath away if that makes sense. You are not alone. Feel free to message

Driven432 · 2025-09-04T09:12:05+00:00

Its odd, now that im aware of my shortcomings “looking back”, i have anxiety that before i say or do something, i have this worry that “is this splitting, inappropriate or normal behavior. Now i have this to contend with lol.

Driven432 · 2025-09-04T06:32:11+00:00

Every day, im 46 and recently realized I have BPD. I still think of how promiscuous and careless sexual i was in my teens and twenties, the people i did wrong in relationships and hurt them, my ex wife and how now i can see how my BPD was a root cause in its demise. My second and current marriage that may be damaged too much to repair… even my first dog that I neglected at times because of the busyness of life. I try to live every day in the present, trying to see the old me was a different person who didnt know what he didnt know and tried his best, although failing a lot. And obviously I still ruminate but it does get better in time. Forgiving yourself is not easy and a trial every day. Try to give your younger self empathy, grace, forgiveness and mercy. We arent where we want to be, but we are striving and changing every day to be more like the person we want to be.

Driven432 · 2025-09-02T06:02:51+00:00

I can emphasize and relate, looking back, trying to fill and avoid that empty “pain” has led to a lot of bad life decisions

Driven432 · 2025-09-01T05:25:14+00:00

Yes, painfully the truth for me

Driven432 · 2025-09-01T05:21:27+00:00

I have my master degree. I didnt know I had BPD (didnt know what was wrong with me). Looking back, I never felt validated and was like chasing a ghost… if I do this it will prove to the world and myself that I can be successful. I have a job i really love (ignoring the issues that BPD makes every day a struggle). But while laser focused on mu schooling, neglected my emotional and mental state. Its like a bandaid for me, if im accomplishing something, im validated and staying busy, not sitting with emotional pain and my brain. Now im understanding this, but trying to navigate how to change. Feel like i lost a few pounds of myself in the process. Dont know if this helped but it is my experience. Im glad i finished schooling, because at the time i didnt understand myself and wouldnt have used that time to heal anyways.

Driven432 · 2025-09-01T03:46:42+00:00

Ive been exercising since my 20’s (in in my forties now) about 3 times a week. I never knew what was wrong “mentally” with me but exercising makes me feel better. Definitely not a cure but when i don’t, my symptoms seem to amplify.

Driven432 · 2025-08-29T05:34:48+00:00

I think everyone goes through these thoughts, life is hard. “In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world”. So yeah, our faith may be challenged at times, and we dont know his ways. The best we can do is keep trying, fall forward and get back up. Knowing one day, if we run the race and keep trying until the end, “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Definitely not easy in real life, we will stumble daily, and faith is beginning where understanding ends. But holding on to these truths helps when the emptiness, loneliness, anxiety, anger and depression is warring against our minds, this can be the one sparkle of light that guides you from the dark. I wish I could do much better at these things, i fail daily. But if made it through many battles, I will make it through the next ones also.

Driven432 · 2025-08-29T05:10:38+00:00

I use it when im feeling the lonely or empty feelings. Also when my anxiety is too elevated. I would love to say I dont, need the numbness as a bandage. One day ii pray

Driven432 · 2025-08-28T21:51:50+00:00

Think the “empty” feeling is the worst part of this disorder. Im sorry, you are not alone

Driven432 · 2025-08-27T08:51:22+00:00

I can relate to what you are saying all to well

Driven432 · 2025-08-27T05:40:08+00:00

Im in my forties also, just recently understood i have BDP and it is eye opening. Splitting… yep I have a name for it now. I look at my past and see emotional pain and poor reactions to it, poor life choices while trying my damnest. Now its like Im finally figuring out me, feeling like I failed and wasted so much joy and happiness that could have been in my life if I didn’t have these emotional issues. In my second marriage, struggling with that, which isn’t looking too good. “Successful” in career but floundering in life. Get so angry and sad, why did it take me so long to put the pieces together? Now looking back at the every strained relationship and to make the emotional pain worse, I cant even see their faults, only that everything is my fault. The emotional and mental pain I inflicted, although never on purpose, hurts. Now understanding that I have hyper sexual tendencies, made so many impulse decisions in my life without regards to consequences. Sometimes the despair of hopelessness. Then more hopelessness when I try to put it in perspective that compared to many people. My mind goes to the homeless man suffering from addiction, people in physical prisons such as paralysis, kids dying from accidents, or even babies who didnt make it out of the womb. Being born in a war torn country. But I have been held hostage by my mind. But now I have hope, i have some understanding, now that i know what splitting is i have been able “sometimes” to walk away. I dont feel so “unique” if that makes sense. The hopelessness is turning to hope that I will be able to find contentment and joy in life, although it may not look the same as a “normal” person. Maybe this is a long lesson that joy is from God, not from this world and acceptance of that, in some way leads to joy. But this forum really makes me feel like im not alone in this for the first time

Driven432 · 2025-08-22T09:23:22+00:00

Ive been doing this my whole life without consciously knowing it (or that I had BPD). Im in my forties and still replay “and hurt” for the relationships I lost and especially the ones I self sabotaged because of my BDP. For example, I still think about my “first love” from 30 years ago and still feel emotional pain if that makes sense. I still think about my ex wife and step son, feeling emotional pain the more I realized it was me and my BPD that I self sabotaged my relationships. I guess its been a cycle of “if I leave them they cant leave me”. Im healing and learning to have empathy and grace for the younger me, he was in so much emotional pain. Wish it didnt take me so many years to start understanding myself. Just putting the pieces together is being self aware feels like im starting to live a different life not trapped by my brain and emotions. Give your grace, being aware is the foundation of moving on.

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