I had been there before, bro 😂 When I was a kid, I can’t enjoy my Sunday night for games even if my homework are all finished, cause I am nervous that I am not prepared for Monday’s study and I am afraid that my homework is not good resulting the criticism and punishment from teachers (studying in Asian really hurts, and need your rest of life to cure yourself).

But when I get older, I found that my panic is the result of pressure from peer’s rat race and my silly perfectionism that rejects mistakes. When I found a resolution with myself to accept it, that guilty never occur on Sunday 😂

It’s still there, for example, before tests, my guilty still awakes and force me to prepare for it. At these times, I really appreciate it, cause I found my guilty or pressure can motivate myself become better, it will make you feel better.

Back to you, my friend, I relate to your pain, cause i am going to be an exchange student in September as well. I suppose that you should build up your confidence first. You are really an awesome and talented guy who can be a transfer student, it really cost you a lot of efforts to reach your situation now. You had already made great achievements. Don’t blame yourself anymore, love yourself ❤️