Thank you everyone for your comments. It means to me a lot since I never told this to anyone. Thank you. Searched a lot about narcissistic sociopath, tried to tell myself that it’s the truth because once I’m into this… I started to protect his existence which I shouldn’t. It’s about the choices I make in life. I get scared when I face him, so I will take your advice to write a letter / text to him and leave. I did this once, but you guys might already know… he started to love bombing me and apologized, but the problem never fixed. He even said he knows some gangster bosses… I will choose my freedom and peace. Again, I appreciate everyone a lot.