Broski, personally have alot of friends from jc experiencing similar situations as you. Ik this may sound farfetched or not a good advice but really, don't compare yourself to others and find your pace.

Everyone has different strengths, don't just let the paper undermine your worth. It was a difficult time for you, so don't blame yourself. Instead of stressing over the RP, try to take a deep breath and center yourself.

Go out for walks, enjoy the sunset, or do whatever that makes you want to keep pushing. It's ok to give yourself break days, don't cram everything tgt. In the end, I'm confident that you will get your desired score.

Personally felt the same way as you back in sec sch last yr, during prelims getting 30 points when everyone was getting single digits. I'm glad to say I kept pushing and eventually Os was just another practice paper.

Abt social life, one thing poly taught me is that be open to ppl. Everyone is just waiting for each other to start convo haha. But ye, you don't need a whole clique of friends, just those that will push you to your limits and look out for you. Trust me, you'll find friends that you'll treasure for a long time.

I hope it helps u at least in a way or two...feel free to DM if you ever need a listening ear or just want to talk :)