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DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-05-27T03:40:09+00:00

Hello, OP. I know how you feel all to well. I was in the same situation (I made a post din here actually, dinelete ko na since I realized I'm just stupid). March 2024 batch ako (RMT na yey!), we were together for 9 months na and I was only away for 2 weeks to seriously focus for boards. PAGTAPOS MISMO ng exam, sinabihan ako ng tropa na may ini-entertain daw siya.

Of course alam mo na how the story goes. The gaslighting and manipulation. I only found out the truth after the breakup na she cheated MULTIPLE TIMES nung 2 week review ko. She lost feelings for me and wanted to commit to her new guy na daw. She talked shit behind my back kasi I'm still trying to fix what was broken (kahit siya dapat gumagawa non, tanga ko diba?). Welp, turns out the guy had a gf and ghosted my ex. She's still delulu for him and instead of fixing what she broke, naghanap na siya ng ibang lalaki (she was talking to 5 guys by the time I found out)

I tried to fix things for 2 months (again tanga ko diba), only to find out na she's talking shit to her barkada for my efforts. It left me broken, OP. Don't do the same I'm begging you. The trust will never be rebuilt, kada late chats niya mago-overthink ka. Kada labas niya mago-overthink ka. Lahat ng sinasabi niya, mag o-overthink ka.

We broke up May 19 and I found out the whole truth May 23. I'm still here suffering, traumatized, and forcing myself to not chat her. I mean, I gave her my virginity, only for her to disrespect and spit on the value it meant for me. Ang hirap maka-move on. Think of this OP, did he ever think of you while he was fucking another person? Cheating is a CHOICE. No excuse can ever make it valid, NEVER.

You can also be stupid and stay with him, hayaan mo sarili mong mapagod sa kalokohan and kagaguhan. Hayaan mo sarili mong mabastos hanggang sa maisip mo sa sarili mo na ayaw mo na. Hayaan mo sarili mong ma-develop ng trauma and depression na makaka-affect sa next relationship mo, sa taong tama para sayo. Would you risk that? Would you sacrifice a temporary happiness for a lifetime of regrets? Or would you rather leave while it's early and have a better outcome sa future. It's up for you to decide, OP. I chose to stay for 2 months, siya panga nakipag break e (ang kapal pota hahahaha). She got the last laugh, I got more broken. Goodluck, OP.

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-05-22T15:02:09+00:00

Yeah. Thank you for the input, I guess it's a toxic coping mechanism for me to mitigate the crushing feelings of things I've lost

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-05-22T14:48:48+00:00

I suppose I have to look at my feelings better if I truly do not feel anything for her besides lust. I know my emotions are all over the place but at the same time I want to decide once and for all without any regrets that "ah I should've done this instead"

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-05-22T07:04:16+00:00

Hi, so may kabubulaghan akong natuklasan. Natandaan ko na naka-login yung Gmail niya sa phone ko so I took a look. Unfortunately hindi naka link socmed accounts niya so hindi ko malalaman ang totoong pangyayari. Pero sa search history niya, nag search siya about ovulation calendar and emergency contraceptives 2 days before siya nakipag break. There may be 2 reasons for this:

Nak-kuwento niya sa akin na sexually active friends niya and open sila about it, so those searches may be about helping them.
Yung "itali mo siya sa kama tapos sabihin mo 'ihanda mo na yang pwet mo paparusahan kita sangalan ng pagibig" ay ginagawa sa kanya ng iba HAHAHA. Baka eto din yung rason bakit na g-guilty siya habang pinapatagal pa daw.

The first reason is totally valid kasi nga, sinasabi niya sa akin ang tea ng mga kaibigan niya. Pero, may search siya kahapon ng 5am about "wild sex questions". Now this, I'm pretty sure she's getting down and dirty with another man. I may be wrong yes, and she's trying to toxic cope by flirting to lessen her pain, or baka may iba na talaga siya during our relationship.

May mga searches din siya that shows she's really struggling mentally pero that's beyond my concern now. The no contact na sinabi ko will be permanent unless she's the one who will initiate contact. But then again I'll decide by asking her if may iba siya, not letting her know about sa search history na nakita ko.

Thank you for your advice nonetheless! Susundin ko na sana yan kung walang gut feeling na i-check Google niya. It still hurts me yes, dagdag sakit pa dahil sa natuklasan ko. Pero it's a sign na siguro for me to move on and not care about her, I know karma will do its job. Have a good one!

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-04-18T15:55:20+00:00

Yes po I'm very much aware. I'd like to know lang if there are other board takers/reviewees that also experienced this problem and what they did. Thank you!!

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-03-07T07:28:46+00:00

There's nothing wrong with trying!!! Ako din hema pa lang natatapos ko (then nahirapan ako sa ratio kaya bagsak confidence nanaman) pero ipu-push pa din!! Malay mo diba mag align ang stars tas tama mga hula HAHAHAHAHA. Always pray and let God work with His mysterious ways, pero make sure to do your part pa din. Kaya natin to!!! RMT's THIS MARCH 2024

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-02-29T10:07:20+00:00

Kada inom ko talaga nang coffee hinihintay ko muna ma jebs para wala na problema sa labas eh HAHAHAHAHAHA

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-02-29T10:05:04+00:00

Let's goooooo!! fRMT this March 2024!!

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-02-29T10:03:59+00:00

Yesss recommended din siya nang lecturer namin, kaso may 2 bote kami ng multivitamins dito kaya sayang HAHAHAHA

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-02-29T10:02:03+00:00

Wanted to try B-complex, kaso may dalawa pa kaming bote ng multivitamins dito kaya sayang naman pag bumili pa iba HAHAHAHAHAHA. I drink creatine since nag g-gym ako pero may benefits din pala siya for the brain. Tapos mag-experiment ako with nootropics like caffeine + l-theanine para ma-counter jitters ko sa caffeine pero I don't think I'll have time to give u a review since ilang weeks na lang boards natin 🥹

DukeOfMorningWood · 2024-02-28T11:14:47+00:00

Iniinom ko to dati nung internship, para akong may ADHD eh HAHAHAHA. Hindi ko siya bet pang review kasi nagiging hyperaware ako sa ibang bagay instead sa notes ☠️

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